umeya

nil

2008-04-12T00:24:00.001+08:00

the art of losing is not hard to master.
loved&lost.

say goodbye.

meyaaMIAnana

2008-04-08T19:25:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY.

girls&alotta walking

new friend, Mia :)

nana's bright idea for Popeyes after my very first real PT session. thanks uh bestfriend. you know my weak point you kuku bird.

multiple (failed) attempts to take a shot with the spore flyer.

tourist-y shots at spore flyer.

in&out of shops to do what girls do.

and surrending at Starbucks RC cause our legs couldnt take it anymore.

tried (uber sweet nak mampos and sinful) White Choc Mocha.

im guilty as charged.

i'll (on my own accord) drag my sorry ass tmrw to work the calories off.

please ignore the outfit repetition. i feel empowered walking out of gym after a cold shower innit. and nobody can stop me from feeling empowered.

and i love my new grey headband :D me likey.

ciao bella.

anthem of my life

2008-04-06T23:35:00.002+08:00

cause i feel i fit right in.

i know what im doing.
im cutting off a piece of my heart, life and soul.
and i may never get to redeem em' all back.
as crazy as it seems, all i can truly say is; im sorry

Kanye West's Stronger is my newfound anthem. on the threadmill = best.

familiar faces

2008-04-03T00:17:00.004+08:00

nights hasnt been easy.

i tossed and turned, needing to be alone.
i thought hard; "pack dress, pack book, pack towel, take train, take SentosaExpress, walked down to beach, sit and just be alone."
OKAY SET.
then i was reminded of the nice comfy sofas at sbux and everything completely changes.
i was set on becoming a roaming loner but ended up surrounded by familiar faces i love.

click below kay thanks
LELA PETER PAN

in other news,

i want to run away.

your fool

2008-04-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

i cannot find the right words to say

im sorry

2008-03-31T01:24:00.002+08:00

The very first day of my life

Was the day that you let me go

And it was a blessing in disguise

Now i see that i'm beautiful

Cause all we ever did was fight

We were so disfunctional

Now i forgotten all the times

And all the days that i was lovin you.

Just like a ghost from my past (he's come back to haunt me)

Saying that you want me back (look at its impossible so...)

Love me, leave me

Cause ive already closed that door

Don't want to be

In the pain i felt before

If i only could be myself

Without your approval anymore (if you love me leave me)

If you love me leave me alone

Now there used to be a time

That i woulda taken you back again

But now that i have you out my mind

Now i'm totally independent

So you can save your little lies

Cause i know whats happenin'

Your missin' me but say goodbye now

To all the days i was lovin' you

If you really wanna help

Than you should go

Cause i promised myself

I'd let it alone

At the back of the shelf

Cause where i put what we had

I'll never going back, no

im sorry.

nonsense

2008-03-30T15:51:00.003+08:00

im bored.
im gg for talk talk negotiate negotiate session with moms at FF.
N! im gonna have a chance to look cute talking cause after that im gg out with Qah!
:D
shit man. i have weird thingimajiggggs gg on in my life and i dont like it.
who wanna go eat at Giraffe with me?????
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i want the salmon.
school's starting soon. third year. senior. ???
i need to shit now. shit la.
ok bye.

Nloved

2008-03-29T21:30:00.004+08:00

yesterday was FF with N as my guest.
and it went great. great till i had a tinge of hope that she's actually alrdy a member and will be working out with me. :(
i tried the club's shower for the first time and finally saw the sauna tuck at the back of the showers.
but no friend to heat things up with and didnt get to do it with N cause it was rushy rushy.
sorry babe.
so after shower, dressed up, free use of hairdryer(i LIKE) and we left for IMM to give the boy a surprise visit.
lunch-ed and then to NUH to visit N's nenek.
her aunties were there and i love her family. they're so happy and can joke about everything under the sun.
i had wanted to sleepover her house but was very fickle about it so i didnt bring any fresh clothes but was lured to Yewww Teee in the end. :D
ayah drove all the way to East Coast cause mummy wanted to eat satay so we had a great supper and then home.
N & i talked till the wee morning hours and i (tried to) sleep with a smile on my face.
i felt very complete. like ive got nothing to hide with this girl of mine, it was all good.
♥
N followed me home this afternoon to shower(AGAIN) and change and meet moms supposedly for Body Shop's warehouse sale at Suntec but we did a U-turn when we saw the queue. we ended up at Marina Sq's outlet where i got my essentials and then to RC to meet dad. N had to leave cause she had to go see nenek who is alrdy discharged :)
RC for Dp and Topshop. pencil skirt and identical polka dot top i have but in emerald green! i likeyyy.
then early dinner and home.
good good good family time.
:D
okays takes cares peoples. me loves<3
(no pikchas cause the camera was sent to the shop for repairs. very bad. not even a year old :P)

abah's 67th

2008-03-27T23:05:00.004+08:00

updated @ 11:05pm.

seee laaaaa hyperventilate until forget own father.
sorry dad. you may not even know half the things i do on the internet but this is for you.

you're 67 today.

you dont know how much that number freaks me out.

i cooked all your favourite dishes, hoping that its one of your many best meals.

may Allah bless you with great health and may you live to a ripe old age when i can take care of you and feed you if you cant, with all the best meals you deserve.

may you live till the day im strong enough to let you go.

im selfish only cause i love you and i have no other father except for you.

i hugged you today and presented you the best i could cook,

knowing that beneath your sometimes hard exterior, you love me too.

happy birthday Abah.

♥

traingle

2008-03-27T21:55:00.005+08:00

i googled Haizad Imran to show you why i hyperventilate every few minutes.

imagine him(above), only TAN-er and killer trainer arms.

he(the trainer which i wont disclose his name in case he googled me. cheyyyyy. like as if.) interviewed me and know that im a complete lazy ass who hasn't exercise since o'levels(which is eons ago btw).

he knows how much i weigh. nobody else does. cause from what that appears on the high tech equipment i might as well just say im as heavy as Hulk Hogan.

he says "you can do it.. five more. ok three more."

he gave me the slightest push so that i can be more flexible and stretch (almost) till my toes.

he convinced me to convince mom to pay a coupla ($$$$$$$$$) to have him as my personal trainer.

the convo with moms just ended. and IT WENT PRETTY DAMN WELL.

now im afraid. especially when im reminded of the strain on my cordyceps(cheyyyy!) and him saying, "no pain no gain".

im very afraid. if all goes as planned, im gonna have an extra marital affair(HAHAHAHA!!) with a pretty face who wouldnt be easy on me.

im very much excited thou. its like im starting on a new life.

but still very afraid. i see those like me being push to thee edge in The Biggest Loser and im lucky if prettyface is half as pushy as em' trainers.

this feels right in a very wrong way.

Breathless by Shayne Ward is playing, how appropriate.

(hyperventilates....................)

ok bye.

daniGirrrrl

2008-03-22T21:55:00.003+08:00

this girl's hot, & we're all twisted in our own way(or maybe just me) ;P

sick&tired

2008-03-20T23:16:00.004+08:00

let me know when you can do half the things i do for you.

uni online shopping is fun. im interested with Edith Cowan(i think its the only one at Perth which offers EC programs) and ive even researched on the map and bus routes from the campuses to my sister's house. (haha!)
ONE MORE YEAR.
its never too early to start yeh?
and besides, its time to think of the future.
it'll hurt to leave the only two wonderful souls in my life behind, thou.
but i think it'll hurt even more when i persuade them to at least CONSIDER my plans.

FitnessFirst

2008-03-19T19:11:00.003+08:00

i just came back from town with the boy and his sister.
and i can finally say,
FINALFREAKINGFUCKENLY!
im a proud member of
Fitness First :)
i just need to get my gym gears now.
my track shoes(dated from wayyy back) dont fit anymore.
im very HYPED up and i hope this hype doesnt burn off but the calories DO.
cant wait to start! and i'll make sure i bring N with me as my guest so that she can share in the shedding of fats with me and im VERY SURE she'll look 10 gazillion times better than some skinny bitches. well, she alrdy do :D
ok bad quality photos now.
ENJOY:P

Motivation is what gets you started, Habit is what keeps you going

Instant passport photo!

I lugged this all along Orchard Rd. i think they shld give totes to the ladies. heh.

last night playing with the webcam

princess ~~fiona~~ ogre

bye hunns!

kayellll08'

2008-03-18T22:56:00.003+08:00

Honey(s), im homeeee!

i lazy uh wna story long long.

(TYPICAL I KNOW)

i saw my bam-bam(i clipped her hair using my huge pink clip and started calling her bambam and it stuck)

saw my lovely sister

ate alot of GOOD FOOD. KL IS HALAL HAVEN. wells msia in general.

had my lobster, HAD A&W!!!!!(best gilerrrr)

shopped, Chanel-esque bag! (malas uh wna take picture, next time hokay)

just had good family time, the three of us on my sister's bed joking with one another.

saw moms when she came to Melaka last week for my cousin's wedding.

good good good times.

and as usual, bus departs, broke my heart.

bambam was sleeping when i went off and sister said she looked for me when she woke up.

urrgh. heart crumbles.

BUT sis bought me webcam! and she bought hers yesterday so this means,

bam bam all day, everyday!

till whenever my loves♥

we'll meet again.

(i realised my family is scattered all over the world. particularly spore and msia uh. like i only have one close aunt here. then my other aunts and uncles both paternal and maternal in msia. my siblings too. and my sis in aussie. it hurts y'know. to always say goodbye. even when i leave home ive to say goodbye to my parents and my lovely lovers here. i wish i can just bring everyone closer together, a stone's throw away.)

ohwells.

pikchas, ENJOY<3

leaving home, going home

leaving home, coming home

schatzi, im back.

oct 07

2008-03-14T08:57:00.002+08:00

a coupla inverted V with a line across, happy.
hit more than 3, GRATEFUL.
thank You, up above.
<3

confessions in kayyellll

2008-03-13T22:54:00.003+08:00

Confessions of a (pathetic) shopaholic
It was a drizzly late morning.
Jockey-ed the car; ive never had a car door opened for me.
Across the road my sister pointed, "tuuuu Juicy..."
"Take my picture infront of the shop kak!"
Lunch-ed.
Walked over to Pavillion.
*hyperventilates while walking towards gorgeous Juicy store*
walked in, greeted by salesguy, browsed and ooooh-ed and ahhhh-ed .
went down(2 storeys rmb!) to look at the bracelets.
"how much is this bracelet?"
"500something ringgit"
"oh ok. thats a steep difference from the internet prices even after conversion"
"oh yes miss (bla bla bla)"

ala malas la nak story long long
cut story short.
i went out of Juicy thinking "ahhh its okay la... can get more things with the money i have.."
Pavillion is amazing.
SPACIOUS.
the Forever21 will put VivoCity to shame. yeps the whole vivo. hahahah!
its gargantuan. i got mad searching for the top i saw and wanted.
went out empty handed, again.
went in, went out, went in, went out; of all the boutiques.
there was no shopping bag in my hand, its ridiculous.
my heart went heavy. i have to go back with that pretty baby pink Juicy paperbag.
went in again, after trying shoes and charmies bracelets(was contemplating on this but it was RM600) and even looking at RM250 panties.
i went home, WITH NOTHING.
its embarassing. the people at Juicy were great. if it was in Spore, i'd get dirty stares.
im going bonkers.
but my reserved Chanel-esque bag is keeping me going.
as well as tmrw's exam result.
i'll just die if the result's not up to par.
i still have money that could buy me the LG Shine phone if i convert back to Sing Dollars.
a few days left.
i wanna(have) go back to OneUtama to get F21 tops.
and now i can go get more things.
Juicy? you ask.
forget it.
this is the info i get from the salespeople mouth's which MAY make SGgirls happy; its opening in Singapore this year.
all the best uhhh, everyone's gonna wear terrycloth in sunny island.
i might as well stick to the silver precious from T&Co.
and from whats told to me, the prices are going to be as steep as in the KL store.
not worth it, at all.
but i still not puas hati uh. if the store opens in SG i'll go get the panties just so i can carry the pink paperbag.
im a bimbo, like that.
nights.

Away

2008-03-12T01:06:00.002+08:00

its been a week plus.
freaking fast, i cant believe it.
and even unbelievable is i havent spend a single cent on shopping.
i cant wait to go to Pavillion.
i guess im saving it all up for Juiceeeeeeeeeee so they better not disappoint me.
and ive reserved my Chanel-esque bag at Mid Valley!
LOVELY :D i hope it wont really look like a designer knock-off.
pictures when i get back.
sis and sufi's sound asleep so i better go before she wakes up to make mi-milk for the bumbum.
im missing everyone back home but honestly, im tryna get use to being away.
ive plans and ive been throwing ideas to moms.
God knows what the future holds ;D
bye babies<3

i sayyy jusayyy

2008-03-03T18:21:00.002+08:00

*flips SEVENTEEN Malaysia*
eh there's Juicy's bangle in here... in Msia have Juicy mehhh...
"have what.. at Pavillion"
WHAAAAT????!!!!!! why you never tell meeeeee..... huhhhhhhhh....
"have uh the boutique... two levels..."
KAKAK!!!!

so now im surfing Juicy's site while converting USD prices into Ringgit.
i doubt i have enough.
damn.
we'll see we'll see.
i sayyyy Jusayyyyy!

my little twinkle twat

2008-03-03T01:15:00.003+08:00

i love it when she kisses me right smack on my pout and we'll both exclaim
MUAAAAH!
i love this girl, unexplainably.

2008-03-01T00:18:00.002+08:00

im gonna be leaving in about 6 hours and i dont wanna say long sappy goodbyes cause I'LL BE BACK, whether you like it or not ;P
home's definitely where the heart is but we all need a break sometime.
so take care my lovely lovers, i'll love thee who love me from wherever i am.
and i really hope my beautiful island is gonna be safe and they catch that Mas fugitive ASAP.
my train past Kranji just now and the jam was absurd. yes the causeway link jam can be seen from Kranji. crazy. but i know our men(&women) in uniform are doing their best for our safety so imma wait patiently should my coach be stuck in the jam at Tuas.
okay loves, au revoir.
♥

insomniac talks

2008-02-28T01:39:00.003+08:00

i need the hair therapy so bad i dont think i can sleep.
then i cant sleep cause i'll be too damn excited to get on the bus.
im hatching a devious plan to not sleep till i get my ass on the bus's seat.
HAHAHAHA. who am i kidding.
but not a very bad idea considering KL's sleeping time is like 9plus, before 11pm MAX cause i sleep in sis's room with her and the bumsbums. the guest room no aircon and her room can practically fit an entire entourage so i just selit(squeeze myself in) uh. then i get a super early 7plus wake up slapping by bumsbums when i proceed to changing her diapers.
my sister self-proclaim that she's free from bathing and changing her child when im there.
im very much glad to help laaa okayyyy.
yes ive changed bums poo poo diapers and heck im proud of it!
nights la people.

teeny bopper one year old

2008-02-27T19:26:00.003+08:00

dad just called KL and i said hello to the little bum and she was giggling over the phone like some mentel teeny bopper.
it breaks my heart when i think that im going to be leaving KL in two weeks AND IM NOT EVEN THERE YET.
im melodramatic like that, pardon me.
kay la.
im bored.
imma read my book.
tuition's cancelled cause both kids got the pox from the chicken.
at least i got to finish my laundry(im intensely LAZY so i feel a sense of achievement when there's no dirty clothes and everything's nice and clean).
bye.

bumbums

2008-02-26T21:22:00.008+08:00

twinkle toes&flower bums

finally got the airebus ticket(!)

setting off in the morning this time round; i cant freaking wait.

can you tell?

heh.

got some books, ate late lunch at Sakura then got the reserved DP tops, moms got me a MNG sweater(!), back to AMK hub to meet with abah, they got that little twat some amazing loot, dinner then home.

im sucha sucker for pretty covers.

cant wait to see the bumbum in this!

can you imagine how lucky that girl is. its not cheap for that little amount of rubber(?) usage. i think only babies look adorable in crocs. dora from moms and the pretty little red one i chose from dad. grandparents pampering. i think the dora one have to wait for her feet to get bigger but hopefully the red one fits perfectly! so preeeeedyyyyy! :D

cant wait cant wait cant wait.
kaybye<3

sammie date

2008-02-25T23:33:00.013+08:00

samm & supastylist

lunch

shopping!

samm and her pretty new do'

purrrdyyyyyy tops from DP&TP; one exactly like the one nana have(pic below). heh. one i like super super super MUCH, there's a butterfly, the no.7, some pretty stars, even have mushrooms(i like to eat mushrooms). the top screams my name :D

JUNO JUNO JUNO JUNO JUNO! I LIKEY LIKEY. THE MOVIE'S TOO DAMN GOOD AND ONLY THOSE WHO LAUGH TRULY GETS THE MOST CLEVER SCRIPT WRITTEN! thanks babe for watching it again, with me :) and sorry for the terrible seat you got. the guy's a fag. pussycat......

dinner at FIN, me and my salmon &calamaris!

then home.

tmrw date with momma. cant wait!

nights babies<3

Godsend<3

2008-02-24T23:43:00.016+08:00

i didnt exactly party like a rockstaaaar but i still partied, in my own way. :)

ThursdayN came over after her exams so i can start partying with her. we had a feast at the AMK Hawker Centre. Rojak mama, satays, mee soto... BEST. but i was still very jittery and kept looking out for the Lion Dance(go on laugh at me) AND really like EVERYTIME, the troupe will be everywhere. thank god we finished our meal and i just had to leave even thou N kept asking me to chill and face my fears. (i guess no one will understand my fear of the dancing lion) so anyways after the heavy lunch we went back to my house to chill for abit before i had to leave for tuition and she for home.

dad came back and was sitting with moms having evening snacks/tea so i just went for the kill, "can i sleep at nurool's house tonight? please. after tuition so near then can just go her house.. tmrw i come back.. please..." and dad went, "bring your long pyjama pants uh dont wear shorts.." and i ran to my room and jumped for joy!

so after tuition babe sent me to her house, ate dinner, changed and while nurool was showering, i discovered her colourful set of nail polish. i asked her if i could wear em for the night and take em off the next day cause moms wont appreciate a daughter with colourful nails. she said yes and i went crazy! JAKON nak mampos. i looked damn childish when i started to put em on. once in a PINK moon seyyy. heh. after some jigglies, we took off our pjs bottoms and started to rock it in our panties! hahahah! (dont imagine, it'll kill your appetite). the highlight of the night for me have gots to be when i lost to N in UNO and started to throw the IKEA finger puppets she liked so much(im a sore loser like that). she like but they're actually mine. but whatevs uh then i started LOL-ing cause the animals scattered on the floor looked so damn hilarious. we snoozed at arnd 2am.

Friday woke up at 12-ish in the afternoon, snacked on junk like nobody's business, watched the thai show which N claimed she cries everytime she watch. and she was (doing that sound when you cry) behind me as i just happily watch it while yawning a number of times. it was the same with that indon flick My Heart, EVERYONE i know who watched it CRIED. even NANA, the stonehead NANA and my BOYF, yep my boy with the dick cried while watching that sappy indon love story. and i didnt. dno why la.

on the contrary, i teared abit when i saw the Singapore guys ran to the finishing line in Amazing Race Asia(proud of them la okayyy) and cried like a baby when i saw the Amazing Race Asia recap show, the part where the teams helped paint the kids shelter in Africa, and gave them money. the conditions over there are beyond harsh but the kids just continued dancing and playing like how kids everywhere do(that touched my ECH heart). i'll cry when i see Extreme Makeover: Home Edition too. but i dont rmb crying when i watch any love flicks. eh hollywood producer make something that'd make me cry yaw! :D alamak sidetracked,ALOT.

so anws, N suggested KARAOKE after the show and i went all mixed emotions! i'd never sing like that, or karaoke in front of anyone. the last time i did was when i was in primary school at my neighbour's house(skin abit thicker then). so i went ahead and it was the MOST FUN i had in a long time. it was just very therapeutic. and im in my ultimate comfort zone where i dont effing care if im tone deaf, i'll sing my hearts out with her. and the finale song have gots to be theeeee BEST. i still have it on repeat and everytime i wna cry, i'd laugh instead cause we looked damn hilarious swaying so vigorously. (you'll see the vids which i TOOK from N's lj cause blogger wanna be an arse and didnt wanna upload the vids)

the song just says it all; my heart's love for her is even more. the best damn thing in my life; entering Peirce and meeting this incredible girl. its pre-destined, i know it is. it's His work, He wants me to have an angel to protect me all my life and He sent her. ilu, N. ;)

Saturday

woke up toooo damn early for a saturday to accompany babe to SATA to get his ITE health checkup. all week i was telling him about the jabs and blood test to freak him out. and he freaked! too cute too cute. hah. i even brought his fav gummies and told him that i'll give him one after each needle goes in! hahhahaha! BUT AS I HAVE EXPECTED, yes ME, MUAH, the queue's a killer. dont believe me righttttt.

we went ahead and took the queue number. 164 on ours, 125 on the screen. MAMPOS. 15mins later, "if wna register alrdy this long then what time sey wna go back.. that time you went on weekday nobody right? come la lets go.. monday i come again.." CHEY! make me wake up so early and travel all the other for nothing. "eh get to spend time with me right!" so half an hour later i was eating Nasi Lemak with his parents at home while i wait for the arranged time to tutor his niece. it was nice. very nice. i feel that ive gotten even closer with his parents. i like :D

after tuition, i accompanied him to Holland V to interview at Haagen Daaz. we went across to have Cold Rock after that(traitor!) heh. we took the bus to AMK, went to NTUC, got the ingredients to make curry puffs, met moms and home we went. the boyf PREFERS to come to my house when dad's not around(at kampong again). he wanted to eat curry puffs with vege filling so bad, we call it epok epok sayur. i didnt know how to make that filling cause my specialty is just the puff dough. i like to knead it and punch it(while imagining that its someone's face). hahahahah! so babe dug out his chef instincts and cooked the filling. he was tossing the ingredients and making a mess on the stove. i secretly took photos from behind and when he saw me he said not to disturb him cause he'll lose his "concentration". chey! chef to be action :P

we roll, we fried, we ate while enjoying each other's company. babe is a natural with moms, they get along so well that i just left them at the kitchen while i go watch tv. and they were talking like mother and son(awwwwww.... CHET!) he left after awhile and it was really good to spend a whole day with him. from the crack of dawn. but i was extremely PMS-y and keep tsk-ing him. (i apologize alrdy kay!)

Todaylaze around, dad came back, had lunch, watched tv, got ready, went out, bought a book, went to Starbucks. ive always wanted to do that(read a book and drink a frap) and will think about it when im having exams. it was just very peaceful to be able to that at the same place i seeked solace when my dad was hospitalized, studied for O's with nana, qah and sharul, studied for every other exams. SBTTSH is my ultimate chillout place. and it have become even more personal cause my Buttercup and Bubbles working there. its just kindar weird cause i feel peace in a place where people are sick, hurt and losing there love ones. nayways, i waited for nana to close the store, qah came to pass my Kimage card and we all went home together.

thats a helluva entry. im gonna finish my free mark-out potato salad, shower and call the boy for a bit. another week to look forward to! tmrw's date with Samm! tuesday with superstylist and moms! shopping! wed&thurs tuition. friday's date with the suitcase and saturday OFF I GO to KayELLLLL!

pics&vids;

LOVES♥

sbux

2008-02-24T18:36:00.005+08:00

bigass sofa ♥ pretty bimbo book ♥ oreo cheesecake ♥ greentea frap in personalised venti cup ♥ free internet ♥
solitary within familiarity<3
updates on my fab post exam when i get home :)

ogre my love

2008-02-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

im getting that overwhelming too happy dunno what to do feeling.
i was BEAMING as i walked out from the exam room 15mins before paper ends so that i can escape the human traffic congestion.
Singapore Families was surprising, it was a surprising paper.
and depends if you like surprises or not, good surprises :D
maybe just cause the first two paper was blah.
whatevs'
now its really time to...

"you shrek la youuu"

"okay la then you princess fiona"

"okay uh i princess what..."

"the org(pronounce like you pronounce gov.org) version! hahahah!"

"what org???"

"org la.." (full with confidence that he's funny and RIGHT)

after a few secs, "ogre(oGER) la! hahahahah! ORG! ORG! hahahah!"

my boyf is hilarious. &im lucky<3

HAHAHAHAHAHA ORG EH BABY!!!!? :P

in an attempt to have everything in my life to be PINK, i changed from the yellow L'Oreal to the pink one and i had a head full of gross dandruff and my hair went all dry and disgusting. DONT WORRY, damage control done, i bought back the yellow one and scrub my head. dandruff gone, you can come and sleepover :D and im visiting superstylist before i head to KayElll. ive to pamper my kesian hair who suffered because ive to be a bimbo who loves pink.

kay bye.

party safe y'all :)

eryy sweets

2008-02-18T21:38:00.003+08:00

i almost forget!
ALMOST.
thank you ERY ROSA INDAH for baking me a WHOLE ROUND cake and arranging the blueberries to form the letter "M"!
it is absolutely delicious and you've won yourself another 6months of pestering me!
i ENDEARINGLY love you.
macam cekik darah tapi sayang nak mampos kindar love.
dont action uh cause i'll still PMS you in school.
<3

my poot poot princess

2008-02-18T19:43:00.006+08:00

the princess got a blow up pool and im gonna ATTEMPT to go in it when i get there!

ONE MORE PAPER!

the excitement is boiling over :D

& i'd like to congratulate my LOVER for getting into the Culinary Skills Nitec Course.

after Ns, Ns, Os, Shatec saga and one whole full circle, FINALLY,

im just deliriously happy that you're GOING TO SCHOOL.

and im sorry for all the judgemental judgements i make about ITE.

like nana said, "anywhere also got bad company.. im sure poly also have bad company..."

now now you better make it into their rugby team cause i cant stand your manboobs.

heh :P

i love you babe and i wish you all the bestos in embarking on this new journey.

im sure you're gonna do just fine

remember, behind every chef is a hungry girlfriend♥

cassie poo poo's 21st

2008-02-16T23:46:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21ST CASSANDRA!!!

jian xiong drove SEVEN girls to AMK in his LORRY

and i tell you it was FUN!

the wind, the rush, i always feel like a kid when i take his lorry.

best gilerrrrrrr
when i got home i thought "is this the ONLY kind of adrenaline rushing thing that im up for? will i pluck enough courage to take the roller coaster AT LEAST ONCE in my life?"

...

okay maybe not. i'll stick to lorries(for now i hope), thank you very nice.

you know when you're down and you keep scrolling and scrolling that contacts list and no name seem to give you the vibe to click on it and go bawling to that person. i no longer have to go thru that cause recently i found enough (i dno whatcha call it) to click on someone and bawl my hearts out to her and i want her to know that she dont even need to hesitate one bit to click on me. and i think she knows that too. i'll always be here for you N, forever and ever.

♥,M

heart pain la seyyyy

2008-02-15T21:22:00.003+08:00

i FINALLY fixed my $$$$$$$$$$$ wallet using................
GAM GAJAH!
(elephant's glue. UHU no help.)
shut up eh!
HEART PAIN LA OF COURSE.
the Coach people referred me to this bag cleaning lady who referred me to this like locksmith/cobbler who said the only way to fix it was to open up the stitching and then it will not be sewed the same.
NO WAY LA SEYYYY.
i'd rather live with a gaping wallet then a distorted, went under the knife kind.
dont ask me how the thing came off.
(ive never handled a non living thing like that, with so much care)
someone must have hate me so much and cursed me.
ohwells. we lose some, we win some aye?
and the momma didnt utter a word of disappointment;
she even bought me the glue.
God bless her.
<3

party like rock.. party like a roc..
EH HAVENT FINISH EXAMS LAH!
one down.
two to go.
i need to flush the parent involvement communication shits from my brain and put some down syndrome, ADD, autism jiggies in.
kay bye.

bullshit

2008-02-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

i was just tryna bullshit my way so i could get to the word limit.
and i end up surprising myself; i didnt know i could write something deeeeep.
writer's strike over.
GG soooooons.
time to get on the gossip train.
(its funny how i can go from deep to shallow in 2 seconds.)
ohwells.
its between you&God, anyways.
and you better think what you're gonna tell Him when he ask if you ever frame another person when you were 12.
it doesnt make sense?
nothing makes sense anymore.
now go on and read an excerpt from my suppose-to-be-bullshit-but-turns-out-to-be-deep essay.
A family is a unit which involves many aspects to come in together and tie everything up. Apart from the most important aspect which makes a family whole and that is love, how we live and our surroundings affects our family too. Ideally, everyone wants to live in a place where it is safe, convenient and pleasant. However, in this time and day, we are often made to believe that nothing is perfect. Despite of that, almost everyone strive for perfection in order to make this world a better place to live in. For me and every other person who believes the same, the one thing that is most important is world peace. No matter how cliché it sounds, if I have all the power to change this world, I would want for everyone to live in peace and harmony; every single person in this world. Over the years, great pioneers tried to make this world a better place to live in and each time we lose another heroic soul. Just like how recently, we lost a remarkable woman, Benazir Bhutto, who was just simply trying to make her country a better place to live in. Amidst the wars and fights, we ought to stop and look at who we are fighting against because it all boils down to nothing. We lose more lives in a fight against ourselves. For the reason that one person strives for gold, got it and is too selfish to share, everyone else is fighting and suffering. It may not make sense but going through this study in striving for a family-friendly city makes me reflect on how we want an ideal place to live in but refuse to work together to achieve that common goal.

it wont kill me if i dont get an A for this.
nope. it wont kill me cause i think ive lived(& is still living) in many ways.

high school sweethearts

2008-02-09T23:33:00.001+08:00

♥my highschool sweethearts♥

nana.nurool.ventis.desserts.colourful pens.notes.LAUGHTERS.Gossips.LOVE.

my saturday is almost perfeckt.

we shally shally have a highschool reunion soons.

altogether with lelaa, qah and sharul.

my giler

2008-02-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

For my darling on our cant be bothered to count anymore(43rd) month,

(and cause we wont be celebrating the commercialised-whose-bouquet-is-bigger-couples-suddenly-look-so-in-love-at-orchard road day cause im on an important quest for education!)

you'll always be my funny valentine, my sweet comic valentine

My Funny Valentine

Sweet Comic Valentine

You Make Me Smile With My Heart

You're Looks Are Laughable,

Unphotographable

Yet You're My Favorite Work Of Art

Is Your Figure Less Than Greek

Is Your Mouth A Little Weak

When You Open It To Speak

Are You Smart

Don't Change A Hair For Me

Not If You Care For Me

Stay Little Valentine Stay

Each Day Is Valentine's Day

i love you babe.

(now just imagine i sound like a female Chet Baker and im serenading you with this sweet sweet tune. go giler!)

2008-02-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

Tarina Tarantino was out of stock

So I came back with

A Little Green Box

my boy accompanied me to get my first ever GREAT MAJOR BUY.

i was contemplating real bad.

i could get a lot of other things with the money but HECK.

i figured it'll be a long time till my bank account will be at substantial enough state so i went ahead to exhausting every single cent of my (not so) hard earned tutoring money to get something that'd gimme the sense of aaaaaahhhhh(satisfaction).

i was so damn excited i wasnt really paying attention when my sister's friend was 'splaining to me the different ways of using the necklace.

my sister used to work at Tiffany KL and i swear i didnt even know that Tiffany was BIG when i asked my mom to ask my sister to get the charm bracelet i saw Tata Young wore in Teenage mag back when i was FOURTEEN or something.

i kindar regret it cause now there are nicer charmies.

but nehmind, will work hard for it myself.

after window shopping for awhile, we had dinner at Sakura and didnt know where to go next.

we decided after much of my fickleness and 1/4 way to Starbucks One Fullerton, i felt like having dessert; Muddy Mud Pie from Coffee Club to be exact.

so we walked back, took a bus and went to the EMPTY(except for us and the workers) Coffee Club and i ate my craving which came for no apparent reason.

like, i just wanted it kindar craving.

nayways, we bus-ed(haha) back to hub and then he walked me back home, said goodnight to moms and kidnapped my laptop so that he could use it for some stoopid shares thing he's into now(i still think its HARAM, like gambling kindar haram even thou ive heard of like saham something something. i dno la i guess im just very old-fashioned when it comes to money. i dont believe in making money the fast way but im afraid my boyf does so if he's declared bankrupt, im gonna run far far away. KAY KIDDING.)

ignore the stoopid things he was tryna do to my face in the photo. i just thought it was cute. heh. did i just contradict myself? no. kay nights bye.

OH YES. i was nursing a very bad fever the past week and putting a FULLSTOP to ALL my YEAR 2 assignments.

im free like a bird now!(NOT)

i slacked for a bit this weekend and now imma put on warface and bury myself in my notes.

ive got too much great things to look forward to.

like KL, Aisyah Sufiyah, KL, Sufi, KL, sufi, KL, sufi, KL, SUFI.

kay eh take care bye.

unbearably cute

2008-01-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

some more photos from sis's cam.

the first few were from the time babygirl was hospitalized.

posing with Elmo which wonderfully coincidentally the one she wanted but her mom didnt get for her and instead my mom bought it for her but I CHOSE :D

looking uber cute wrapped in the towel.

and i realized you can really see her MEGA present from her papa so i shall spell it out for you.

ever come across a one year old getting Chopard for her first birthday?

i rest my case.

guan wei told me to use my EC skills to make her as less SPOILT as possible but i think my temperamental sister would do a good job at it.

splitting headache.

need to sleep now.

bye.
p/s: i can feel my ass on the Airebus's seat already. i wna go for very very long but ive got responsibilities which ive to deal with here(tutoring). i shall be happy if i could go for a good two weeks. a couple more assignments and 3 exam papers. i can do this. then i'll be gone. you know where to find me.

xoxo.

bik's wedding/supi's first

2008-01-22T23:08:00.001+08:00

3rd sister's wedding weekend/Aisyah Sufiyah's FIRST birthday

the family was complete for the first time.

everyone came back.

my nephews and niece from Perth couldn't recognize me but they warmed up after an hour and was alrdy starting to tease me.

they have the cutest aussie slang when they TRY to speak malay.

i was thrilled to see the happy pill.

she flashed her four teeth smile as soon as she saw me.

she's now my bunny wabbit.

my sister had on ten million gazillion outfits.

i hate her makeup.

super damn drag queen.

yep. the make-up artistes were a couple of gays and they got tease by my bro in laws who called them "pak andam".

but whatevs.

she's happily married now.

the Abdullah's children left 2 to be married off.

my bro can just go flirt his life away and dad shall wait till i get my degree to sell me off for 1 million dollars!

HAHAHAHAHA!

okay sudaaaah.

i was camwhoring with my cousin throughout the wedding and we got weird stares from the orang kampong(villagers).

we also ran off when the wedding ended so that we didnt have to help clean up.

hah.

i got to meet her boyf who kindly drove us to town so that i can do some obligatory shopping but failed cause nothing is nice.

we chilled at Starbucks(YES. dont play play uh, Malacca also have Starbucks kayyyy) where my cousin INSIST that the barista was flirting with me.

my cousin thought kay not me :P
then yesterday, was my pretty lil princess's FIRST BIRTHDAY!

my sister crazy. she dragged me to Tesco early in the morning and we bought so much tidbits, finger foods and ice cream AND 3 buckets of KFC finger lickin' good chicken.

then i had to prepare the decorations and pack the party favours last minute AND pack my bag cause i was taking the 4.30 bus back home later that day.

that explains why i only had one GOOD photo of the birthday girl blowing her candle with her parents(awwwwwwwww<3)

i was also snapping away with my sis's cam so that she wont scream at me for using my cam only.

her daughter's first so must give chance uhhh.

anyways, im still waiting for pictures from my nephew and my sister.

i was SHOCKED when i saw the paperbag sufi's papa handed to her.

you shall see what she got for her FIRST birthday present from her dad.

YOU SHALL WAIT AND SEE.

okay thats it.

kampong was nice.

always nice.

i didnt wna leave, mainly cause of sufi.

but i'll get through these few weeks left of school then IMMA HIT KL AGAIN!

nothing new la ehhhhh. story of my life :D

so here's the pikchas and a vid of the babycousins playing!

nights cupcakes.

♥

btw, MUST GET Tarina Tarantino's ring with this month's tuition fee. Tiffany shall wait :D

LG baby

2008-01-17T10:55:00.001+08:00

just when i thought there's no nice new phones to change to, this one surfaced.
nope. my L'Amour is doing just fine(aside from the scratches). im just gatal, plain gatal.
i guess mama knows best when she said while buying the L'Amour last year, "your phones will not last a year..."
and i still had the cheek to argue. HOHO.
aesthetics kills la moms.
kill your pocket.
i wait kayyy i wait :D
oh! why i can blog abt nonsensical things now?
cause i passed my freaking assessment.
PASS. dont care A dont care B dont care C AS LONG AS PASS.
enjoy kampong now MEYAA!
going going going GONE!
<3

come on B

2008-01-15T16:31:00.000+08:00

"Are we really gonna play that old game, B? ...... You act like you're in this movie about your perfect life then I have to remind you, the only one watching the movie is you." -- S

every now and then, we have to remind ourselves that there is no such thing as perfect. as much as the word is plastered all over Oxford, Cambridge and Merriam-Webster, it is, only, just a word.

its raining cats, giraffes and elephants and the only sane thing to do is to snuggle in the blankie and dream of Dani Campbell.

instead, im googling for ideas for TOMORROW'S math lesson assessed by the mentor and trying hard not to fall asleep infront of the comp or later when im tutoring.

this thing is not getting any easier.

but what's life without its struggles.

right?

okays byes.

a breather

2008-01-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

my sister damn "classy". gimme present never even peel off price tag. but anyhoos, very much appreciated, thank you for knowing me so damn well, i love you.

so hows my week?
not the best one i can say.
on top of the argument with the boy which snowballed to something "never been there before", sufi got food poisoning and was hospitalized and of course the never ending assignments.
but i got thru it :D
thanks to God and all my lovely friends.
contrary to last saturday, what with all the fun i had with my gfs at Giraffe fooling around with this damn waiter that got my number from the reservation list and texted me amidst the girls drinking. when im going back there, im gna have my boyf make the reservation. anyways, things didnt wrap up very well that night but it was better yesterday.
ive been wanting to eat donuts for days but suddenly feeling feeling and wanted someone to queue with me. (usually, i'd go queue for it myself. ive done alot of things by myself. the only thing is going to the movies. too loner la if i do that. no offence.)
but yeah, so nana was not feeling well when i asked, the boyf was doing dno what. until yesterday that he finally went with me. i suspect he scared cause he heard of rumours that donut factory's queue can take hours. HOHO. but i said to him, "IF QUEUE 10 HOURS ALSO, 10 HOURS WITH ME RIGHT!!!???" heh.
and so we went and we got out of the shop in fifteen minutes. best.
then we went fooling arnd at Toys 'R' Us for a bit before going back to my house.
dad was in malacca and only got back today so moms was cool with the boy hanging around after having dinner.
he SAID he wanted to help me with my assignments but instead he watched the IFL, laze around(dad not arnd whattt so buat macam rumah sendiri uhhhh) instead.
okay credit abit la kayyyyy.
THANK YOU for cutting all those papers for me. and for your ingenious idea on how to cut out the numerals out from the felt cloth (im doing a Math Corner for the kids). i would never have thought of something like that.
so he left at abt 1130pm and i was still cutting and cutting till abt 2am and when i woke up this morning, i was still cutting and laminating and cutting non stop till a while ago. everything for the math corner and the math activities are done now. but i still dont feel accomplished, yet. maybe when everything's set up nicely and the kids dont tear everything apart AND im done with all 3 lessons then i'll be able to breathe more.
for someone who hate math so damn much, i must say im very excited for the kids to try out the activities, all painfully hand-written, laminated and cut by Teacher Umairah.
okay thats it.
thats an awfully lot of words to type for someone who have paper cuts all over.
i cant wait for this week to be over(havent even start. hah.) and before i know it, i'll be at kampong with everyone for my sister's wedding and MY PRETTY LITTLE PRINCESS's FIRST BDAY!
till whenever i get another breather to blog again.
<3take care babies.

giraffe

2008-01-06T01:00:00.001+08:00

Giraffe was nice.

ambience was relaxing and kindar romantic.

food was delish, except for my stoopid medium well sirloin which i asked for well done and stoopid waiter suggests otherwise.

i'll need to go back for the to die for calamaris and salmon.

company was awesome.

now, my boyf is being an ass.

kaybye.

happy birthday nano

2008-01-03T21:11:00.001+08:00

so it was nanananobananobanks NINETEEN.

and Qah and i surprised her with a Gelare cookies and cream cake(freaking delicious! beats my swensen's one) with melted candle wax all over. and btw, there was only NINE candles. guess who bought the cake? :P

it was a cosy affair at the usual hangout with the very unappreciative birthday girl who taught the Guess paperbag on her chair was for some random stranger. damn disappointing uh the reaction. but im too cant be bothered to be sensitive anymore. i proud abit uh cause she likes it :D then she said something funny, "wah all three of us use Guess wallet now uh!"

and with MUCH SARCASM qah said, "meyaa moved on to Coach alrdy.."

*rolls eyeballs*

we camwhored a bit then nana went, "the night is still young man..."

then qah went all hyper.

and I KNEW they wanted to go drinking.

i was contemplating on going with them or not.

but i decided to head home instead of going to DXO Bar where either i will be watching my girlfriends get drunk or be VERY TEMPTED to try.

dah eighteen whattttt.

but home was where my heart is.

cheyyyy.

i surprise myself sometimes for not giving in(or maybe im just born a loser/nerd).

but they surprise me even more.

i had a moment in the crowded train as we went separate ways.

as much as i dont do most of the (FUN)things they do(clubbing, drinking, pubbing, etc.), im still accepted.

heh.

i dno how to explain lah. if you get my drift, you get my drift.

even thou sometimes i'll emo cause i feel like i miss out on alot of things.

anyhoots.

this saturday proper celebration for nana.

at Giraffe or some bar/restaurant.

hah, alcohol.

dno ehk. i may just surprise you :D

bye.

ohyah! pictures!

alamak. atiqah damn sexy. :P

welcome 20o8!

2008-01-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

my countdown was fabulous

http://smell-my-armpit.livejournal.com/

(heh. get your scoop over at my darling sister's. im too beat up from my procrastinations aka assignments. OKAY PEACE:D)

happy new year and have a great one ahead!

highlights07'

2007-12-31T00:45:00.000+08:00

i was enlightened!

it hit me that 2007 was way too meaningful to not post a PICTURE POST for it.

so here goes nothing :D

i kicked off 07' sipping fake champagne, making a din at my void deck, playing sparklers with two of my favourite girls who fell asleep half an hour into the first movie of our supposedly movie marathon.

somewhere mid-jan, i got the best surprise call ever. Aisyah Sufiyah was Godsent from heaven straight into our family and my sister didnt even have to be in labour ;)

oh before that! early jan, xhui's bday. mini reunion with the people that made Peirce, O levels, F&N coursework(haha!) not only bearable but FUN!

this one is a MAJOR MILESTONE. The Parents agreeing to me passing the effing checkpoint alone. my first solo trip to KL to lay my eyes, hands, lips to the babygirl who stole my heart. my second trip, the drive from Malacca with sister and sufi singing kiddy songs. then there is the third trip, solo again on the JetBus to see the fireworks. three times. up to KL, living in my sister's house. taking care of sufi. and one precious thing...

...how much closer i got to my Kak Mai :)

then there is the cousin. the girl i wanted to know so much, which i finally did and now love so much. but now after JUST finding out she quit school, i want to kill and strangle so much. hah. in any ways, she is like the baby sister i never had. the younger one. the one I CAN bully :P bully with love.

of course! my danish cookies! love can be multiplied so dont worry i have enough for this one and sufi to share and many many more wonderful babies to come!

finally, my EIGHTEEN, 18, LAPAN BELAS, si pa! just thank yous, more thank yous, not enough thank yous.

twothousandseven was also a year of relationships.

even thou it happened once. it still did happen. and thats all that matters. reunited.

and you too. i saw you once this year. just like last year. i dont know where you are. i do know that i love you, still. and when you're back from wherever you are, im just one sms, one phonecall, one email, one IM, on train ride away. IMY.

sweet thing! i appreciate your effort of keeping in touch. IM-ing me. and you know, no matter how busy, click on me and i'll listen :). i hope i can meetup with you and seng and xhui this CNY again!

out with the old, in with the new....hahahah! KIDDING LA! something old, something new, i wont forget you girls too. chey.... the transition from secondary to poly wasnt easy. it was like finding a new identity. until i went to vietnam and met people who accept me for who i am; in ugly shorts and tee everyday, hair all up, burnt from the sun, coward to get on the bicycle as hell. HAHAHA! and im glad we tried to maintain that even when we got back. newfound<3

BUT OF COURSE, the old ones are like wine.. ageing... but worth the recognition and appreciation. hah! my QahQihQu! im trying to stop calling you Qah my bitch cause i learnt in school that when you keep labelling people something that person will become more and more like that thing! heh! and i dont want you to become a bitch even thou you're not very nice at times :P i dont know where it comes from, but i love you and when you wna give up on love, remember that you have MY LOVE. and then bubbles! i dont know if you read my blog so i lazy type long long :P "love&hate, hits&misses". FINALLY, nano banano banks! thank you for being my housemate multiple of times, i have a feeling you're still needed for that service.heh. thank you for inviting yourself to be a part of my family and tag along occasionally when we balik kampong so that we can laugh at MAT M'SIA who tries to hit on us. and thank you for being my usually unavailable bestfriend. there are no standards to meet in this relationship. we dont often involve ourselves in each other's daily lives. thats maybe cause we dont try. but somehow, we all come back as one. and i thank God for this dysfunctional family of friends i have<3

moving on to a less dysfunctional family member. since 13 year olds, slenger, sec one days. five years and still counting. we may not be as close back then but you are the FIRST person ive had the longest and still going relationship ever. you taught me what a hyena really is after 24hours of bickering, you showed me how to keep my ipod earphones the right way, you nagged at me for taking moms on so many shopping trips, You, make me feel the most comfortable in my own skin, being my own self and YOU made it clear that this love will last; till we are on our rocking chair, laughing; breaking the chair and our bones. i love you my sister from another mother, father, atok, nenek altogether<3

&you baby. YOU. you are just beyond words. there were rough times this year. but you made it all up. you make me feel everything all at once, happy, sad, angry, safe, unsteady. no matter what, i know, no matter how bumpy the ride's gonna be, you'll hold my hand and make me laugh till i have no care in the world, you'll make everything okay. i love you babe, forever&ever. and thank you for the oppurtunity to tutor your niece and nephew. i was afraid but now i know i could do it. they have been wonderful even though they dont do they're homework sometimes :P they made me feel proud, this year, they made me feel accomplished. i hope i will continue teaching them till P6. heh. cause secondary syllabus=cannot make it la. heh. on top of all that, having your mom talk to me have GOT TO BE THE MOTHER OF ALL JITTERIES but finally, after she asked me help her nag at you and frying me my favourite chicken wings, i know, AT LAST, im accepted. im no more the "kawan(cause they in denial)". im the girlfriend now :D

i have no words to describe my gratitude to both of you. even though you may not know it, i live life for both of you. hold on kay. you've got more to see, ive got more to offer. my graduation, my wedding, my childbirth. hah! moms, you've been the bestest mother; through puberty, through the teen angst, through the tantrums, through the shopping malls, i know you love me the most and i'd give my life for you. no one else mother, no one else. and abah, this year, you've accepted the fact that ive a boyfriend, you've invited him for family dinners BUT you still have to get his name right okay. it's AZAN. not any other funky names who just spout. still, i love you too and you hold on tight too kay. i see beyond the wrinkles and white hair, i see my strong, boncet father whom i still need. thank yous, for life<3

im sorry if ive missed anybody.

but, if you love me, i love you too.

p/s: ERY ROSA INDAH, i didnt forget you. i just didnt wna post your photo :P thank you for still irritating me everyday.

2007 is truly, unforgettable.

now, WELCOME 08'

HOHOHO!

2007-12-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!
my intention of going to Vivo with moms was to get the Desigual shirt which SADLY didnt fit(MOTIVATION!).
but moms warning of "3 months no shopping uh.." didnt work cause SHE succumb to the SALE too :P
so i came home with 3 La Senza bras(yay!), someone's present(this one i super excited! i use MY OWN MONEY kayyyyy. for the first time, moms chose, i pay!) and a Guess bag(hehheh! one day i shall do a tally on how many Guess things i have).
SALE WHAAAT. no one's to blame :P
<3nights!

loves of my life

2007-12-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

dad just got back from his usual runaway weekends to malacca home cause his tai tai boss went off to US for the holidays.
anyhoots. this trip wasnt as usual as the usual.
hah.
cause sister's WHOLE family, all 4 kids and husband from Perth came down to prep for another sister's wedding and the wedding itself uh.
im kindar hyped about it amidst all the FAMILIAL POLITICS(*rolls eyes*) cause the wedding itself is gonna be nice, i hope.
im gonna try to fit everyone and take a family photo on self mode. hahahahah!
so thats not so usual number one.
then there's happy pill who just turned 11month and is too proud to crawl already cause she knows how to walk on her happy little feet.
dad told moms and i some silly little things she does.
one, she was shielding dad so that her cousin(2 months younger) cant get to dad. she didnt wna share(BRAT ATTITUDE ALERT.) hahaha!
two, her mom was scolding her abt something she did and didnt wna entertain her, like step merajok la my sister. then dad said she slowly creep up to her mom, came very close, took her hand and kissed it! sheesh man. sufi polite kindar brat! hahaha!
i feel like kissing her alrdy!
damn. that kid is one of the most effing adorable addition to the family.
okdah thats all.
heh :D
TCC ANNUAL SCHOLARSHIP AND BUSARY AWARDS 2008 form is staring at me.
moms have been eager on asking me to fill up the form. its some society she is member with then she wants me to apply for the bursary.
"how much seyy get???"
"skali a few hundreds jer.."
"money also what, boleh beli beg....(can buy bag)"
no prize in guessing who said what.
hah. before you hate me for being a shopaholic, find out where i came from first.
:P
like guan wei said, "your mom like older version of you.."
i love my rock, my gem, my diamond, my mom♥

sleep tight babies<3

love&chipmunks

2007-12-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

i saw a girl; & she's the thrash.

i should either get a nice bra so that it'd still look nice even if its revealed or ditch the bra altogether! (heh kidding. wardrobe malfunction again. warned.)

other than that,

the day was L-O-V-E.

bus rides complete with all the fun-nest things the boy just had to do to provoke me and make me laugh.

vivo for chilli cheese fries.

back to hub for Alvin and The Chipmunks!

im a wuss when it comes to animals; that, i dont deny. but if there is an exact carbon copy of Theadore complete with his cute little bulging tummy and adorablest behaviour, i'd adopt it in a second!

we wasted 4dollars before heading home cause babe tried to get me the effing cute dumbo keychain from that arcade machine thing but FAILED. he tried, i know. it could've been the best 4bucks ive ever spent.

ohwells.

pikchas now.

chilli cheese fries!

candycane tradition

haha! i bought him this boxerbrieftrunk(?) from topman cause i wanted to get rid of the fading 10bucks voucher. and on the long bus ride back i decided that we were too bored and the boxer is too fun to no play with.

camwhores. nuff'said

I Told The Witch Doctor I Was In Love With You!

I Told The Witch Doctor You Didn't Love Me Too!

And Then The Witch Doctor He Told Me What To Do!

He Said That:

Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the wallawalla bingbang

Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang

Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah to the ting to the tang the wallawalla bingbang

Ooh to the eeh the ooh the ahah ting tang wallawalla bingbang

YO DJ PUMP THIS PARTY!

nights santas and santarinas<3

momma<3

2007-12-22T22:59:00.001+08:00

some relationships are just too special to have another that's similar

this is just too adorable. i swear she asked me to take her picture posing that way cause i asked her to finish the fish.

what i have with her is incomparable. so stop comparing.

saturday night fever

2007-12-22T15:48:00.001+08:00

im bored.
i just got back from artsy fartsy haven aka bras basah with guan wei and ery.
before that, guan wei and i was in a funny situation of wanting to go in Tiffany so i could get the sterling silver polishing liquid but courtesy of my sister's very nice friend who suggested that i use the polishing cloth(&gave it to me for free!) instead, my ear studs will look like brand new everytime :D
ive to tidy the house up; vacumming, mopping etc.
ive YET to start on my assignments.
ive to get ready to go have my super belated bday dinner sans dad who have to work.
i dont feel like going cause its our tradition to have bday dinners together and without him it just feels wrong and incomplete. but....... i dont know.
ive got lots more to say but i cant be bothered to.
hah.
kaythanksbye.

love&magic

2007-12-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

enchanted wasnt the kindar movie i'd go crazy-gaga with but,

it was all made nice, lovely, sugary spice with your company.

& babyboo, i miss you.

mine not yours

2007-12-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

caviar, escargot, Dom Perignon

boring

*continue singing in boring's tune*
cause i prefer mee goreng mamak, satay and char kway teow.

heeeeks.

such lengths people go to, to TRY and live a life more fabulous.

gags.

moving on to the reeeeeaaaaal thing.

this one; i cant live without.

thanks for the teman-ing to eat at banquet(ahem!)

thanks for the laughters(always&forever!)

thanks for everything <3

and CONGRATS ON GETTING THEE "A" FOR BIO PRAC.

imma proud sista:D

cant find a word to describe my gratefulness

2007-12-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

ive been waiting for today for dno how long.

today, i robbed United Meyaa's Mom's Bank clean.

picture post!

and excuse me; for my love of my polka top, i became an outfit repeater today, two sundays in a row :P i think fashion police busy xmas shopping.

my mother is not even CLOSE to fierce, she just refuse to smile. no. when she get her dentures, i'll get her to flash a WIDE GRIN kayy. heh.

last few weeks of enjoying good food before embarking on a new journey towards . . . chey! haha:D

i bet she's thinking, "oh God, why do i get a shopaholic as my daughter...." or NOT! my moms cool with it cause all throughout the day ive been, "thank you eh..." "sorry uh.. dont angry ehhh.." "thank you tau.. love you" hehheh.

moms photography skills. the lighting, power. my pimples almost un-seeable :P

banana crumble SEDAAAAP! the hot&cold sensation is just BEST.

BLESSED.

every girl loves the green/turquoise/blue(shall ask sister what colour is it exactly) box with the white ribbon. :) even thou its puny, IM SUPER HAPPY. i bet im gna feel happier once i save enough tutoring money to get the necklace and bracelet :D

THIS IS JUST LOVE. even if i effing hate the blue interior. i'll grow fond of it eventually. you cant imagine how crushed i was when taka's outlet had one last DISPLAY piece with the logo almost fading and stains selling for the same full price. even if it was half price i'd think a million times whether to get it or not. BUT!!!! you also cant imagine how FREAKING HAPPY i was when i rushed into DFS outlet, asked if they've a new piece and seeing the sales person carrying out 5 plastic covered NEW pieces for me to choose from!!!! im still looking at and admiring it. and smelling the smell of real leather. UHHH... the picture doesnt justify how much of a classic beauty it is. still thinking if i should change to it now or not. maybe not uh. i shall wait for the new year :D :D :D

so yeps. i cant find a word to describe my gratefulness towards moms. for everything. most importantly, for understanding AS A MOM. cause afterall, she's my mother not my friend. if there's one person worthy of all my love, my heart, my life, it'd be her. friday night got me thinking but i shall not dwell on my over-sensitiveness. i shall enjoy my last two weeks of 07' to the fullest. of course the break is useless cause ive got TONS to do but i guess getting to wake up later is a plus point. i'll squeeze in making sufi's bday scrapbook, watching movie, spending as much time with boyf, spending more time at home in between all the assignments and tutoring. then it'll be 08', a fresh start, a new beginning. then i'll get to use my new wallet, new bag, new earstuds, new clothes and NEW ORGANIZER!!!! time to grow up meyaa :)

so y'all have fun this festive season, go break loose and shop! but do appreciate your loved ones and send a thank you note to the One above for them. BYE! <3

life in the fab lane

2007-12-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

We flying the first class

Up in the sky

Poppin' champagne

Livin' the life

In the fast lane

And I wont change

By the Glamorous, oh the flossy flossy

im a sucker for reality tv.
i guess the fact that it is someone else's real life and it is possible to happen makes it damn appealing.
the freaky fact is that i feel that i know that person but truly i dont.
ming and aoki are the luckiest kids.
but. of course i wont trade my mom for the world for she is my world :P
sometimes i feel that my need(wants) for material things are effing disgusting.
though i'd really like to think im the lucky ones.
cant thank You enough.
i am aware i can be strip bare of everything so im enjoying and APPRECIATING the ride while i still can.
dont disturb, bye! :D

p/s: accompanying ginny shopping was great! FINALLY, someone to share my similar woes :)
nehmind, we'll work our ass out kay! and become bollywood actress :P <3

xoxo, gossip girl

2007-12-10T22:57:00.001+08:00

i love how my see-thru polka top, my Evita hairband and my curls are so....................
Blair Waldorf-ish.
even THOU, i KNOW im not EVEN CLOSE to her beauty.
THANKS SAMANTHA SEE XY for the tip :D
xoxo, gossip girl
;D

anyways, check out
http://buttsandroses.livejournal.com/
and
http://sortofbeautiful.wordpress.com/
for lovely posts on my bday.

p/s: i still cant stop smiling when i replay the scenes. how i wish i can hit rewind and replay on my life.

truly blessed

2007-12-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

putting up this photo means i really really love you samm!

lets get down to the real shitzzzzzz yo!

Friday

the rain dampened the day but who am i to judge that it will spoil my WHOLE day.

cause it didnt.

my boyf treated me to Manhattan Fish Market, we had salmon of course :P

i got a "sapphire with two diamonds white gold ring."
lelaa shot us.

after, we spent(wasted) time chilling at Starbucks.

got home, took towel from outside and cover myself so that abah wont see my short dress, pushed my bedroom door opened,

ONLY TO FIND FAMILIAR FACES SHOUTING SURPRISE AND POPPING POPPERS IN MY FACE.

you guys got me. oh yes you did.
what with the towel and all.

and hiding in my messy room, putting all your slippers and shoes under my table so i wont find out until that exact moment.

that cookies and cream ice cream cake.

THAT super posh bag of MOLTONBROWNERS!!!
i have dream-makers as friends.

blessed.

Saturday

was supposedly "meyaa keep your saturday free kayy cause we wna celebrate your bday after botanics cause friday cannot..."

THEN i figured, it was ALL PART OF THE SURPRISE.

i still dragged my ass and kilos of eyebags to join the quest on how to bring children to botanics garden.

sleep deprived but the surprise placed a constant smile on my face.

blessed.

Today

plan was to get together with nana, qah and sharul.

i had no idea where they were taking me until we alighted at Orchard, walked towards Shaw, walked further down and turned into Royal Plaza on Scotts.

i was like, "huh? come here for whattt?" (asking the obvious i know but i wasnt expecting such a posh celebratory place)

then qah went, "eat la! but if you wna eat at sakura we can cross over!"
heh heh heh.

was late for lunch so we chilled, camwhored, laughed at McCafe to wait for high tea time.

then we went in, ate, laughed, goofed, flirted and fought over cute waiter, got bloated.

a perfect little box was placed on my plate, after.

blessed.

i dont think i could say enough thank-yous.

to those who msg-ed.

to the boyfriend for keeping it real.

to the six(wei wei, samm, ery, lelaa, nana and sharul) who jumped at my towel wrapped self.

to the girls for making everyday a good hair day for me now.

to my parents, who wished and promised belated presents :P

to nana, qah and sharul for the very unexpected treat and sucha wonderful, happy day.

to em' above and nurool for the YSL Babydoll.
with friends like these, with loves like these, with memories like these,

im truly truly blessed.

& this past weekend will last me a lifetime.

Thank You, for Everything.

♥meyaa

eighteen

2007-12-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

my eighteen was a blast
stay tuned :D

pre birthday

2007-12-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

pre-birthday blowout
imma happy kid :D

wei wei accompanied me to get my fringe fixed by superstylist.

and i heart him many many.

even guan wei like him!

so uh if i catch you, yes YOU stealing my superstylist i'll shave your hair off!

unless you're a total stranger or i like you

if not... *puts superstylist into pocket*

YES he can fit into my pocket :P

after feeding superstylist with mega amount but puny job well done, i blew the kachings I SAVED and also those that moms gave on a pretty pretty Topshop top and dinner at Vila'ge!
HAPPY:D

thanks yous guan wei for numbing your butt at Kimage wimme(ok laa this time not so long) and always being the one following me to satisfy my damn cravings AND! for the delish delish crepes!
heart you too.
<3nights!>

Dear Jason Lok, you dunno how much i wna hug you but im afraid i'll crush you :P thanks yous!

thank yous

2007-12-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

"Mairah.. I can see that you are a positive and good teacher, keep it up..."

to have a lecturer who just made me perspire like craazzzzy throughout the whole lesson cause she have her eyes on me said the above was............................................................................

WOW.

i never ever even see myself as a teacher(yet).

after all the nagging, screaming, pulling, pushing, nagging, sweating, nagging and thinking, "damn. i so screwed this assessment."

i thank you Corina for saying things i dont expect and putting a smile on my face everytime i think of what you said.

i hope its a Pass, at least. :)

now that i reflect on it, this bunch, this bunch of never seen, never handled before, this bunch who makes me grit my teeth, this bunch who makes me clench my fist, this bunch of hand pulling and biting and kicking and screaming and not listening, this bunch of innocent souls with hidden agendas, this bunch, this effing bunch of 4 year olds, unknowingly, made me a BETTER PERSON.

how truly annoying is that.

heh, kidding.

i dont know why and i dont know what but this bunch of annoyance makes me different.

i dno different in what way but i certainly know its refreshingly different.

thank you kiddos(even though y'all will still have me screaming for a coupla months more)

i know one thing is certain,

He is listening and psssst... thank You for prayers, answered.

love You :)

p/s: someone better tell my boyf he BETTER be careful with whatever shitzzzzzzzzzzz he have planned. cause today, TODAY, may, MAY be the highlight of my week. this is one of the MANY happys that made me smile and dont care about the world. so it just MAY top that one special day that doesnt seem very special right now :P it wont however top the presents so keep em' coming yo! heh. oh anyways, i like the YSL's Limited Edition Babydoll in the music box eau de toilette. i hinted to nana but who ever knows if nana is really gonna buy it for me. and i'd really like the moltenbrowners from Molton Brown at Tangs. they are these to die for curlers but sadly it only comes in blue but i really dont mind cause you know how obsessed i am with my hair. and of course i NEED(want) more clothes, books, bags... heh. and of course if you're a millionaire and you happen to chance upon this and feel like wasting your money, you can get me the Tiffany(s), the Feragammo shoe and the Chanel bag. okay thank you. :D

who am i kidding. im in denial :P bye!

yay moms to being random!

2007-12-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

+undies+Body Shop necessities+Topshop top(still bummed cause the other two no size)

okaaayyyy bring on the birthday!

and bring on the buy-belated-birthday-present day!

YAY MOMS!

and yay moms to being random and just said,

"how much is the Guess bag just now?"

"why you ask? heh heh... why? 112 laa..."

"why you ask? why? why? you dont ask ask uh... i wna wear that Guess shoe on Friday know.. so that bag uh..."

"so? you wna wear the shoe wear uh.."

(and im still gna ask why until im too tired and ive to go to bed)

NYEHS!

which reminds me,

im supposed to pack everything,

call baby and say goodnight,

call upon the Lord Almighty and

PRAY TO SLEEP.

good luckies to me for tmrw.

may the force be with meyaa.

loves<3

yay.

2007-12-02T13:16:00.001+08:00

feeling much better.
and not cause im going shopping with moms in a bit.
:P heh.
been sick the whole week.
like never before been sick like this kinda sick.
so yeh.
now the question is to enchanted or not to enchanted?
but im not in the movie mood.
and moms like dont wna watch :(
she more keen on going shopping, it seems.
even said, "ok after taka if have time i wna go tangs.."
dont like la she later take, put down, take, put down
(please take note where my fickle genes come from)
:D
then uh at last she'll say, "everytime buy for you, i never buy.."
i still love you laaaaaaa, shopping or without.
heh.
and of late, ive becoming more and more of a brand ~~whore~~ uhhmmm... ok im not a whore. a brand...neh neh! a brand neh neh! (i think when samm/nurOol reads this they will imagine neh neh with LV monogram all over)
eh cool uh!
imagine if you walk into a plastic surgeon office,
"hi miss what procedure would you like to do?"
"(in bimbotic voice) ooooh! i want to have breast implants!!!"
"oh sure... which brand would you like?"
"ohh! i can choosea brand i like? LIKE OH MY GOD!! SERIOUSLY!! can i have Chanel please?!!!"
"of course!"
...
ok wait. then the implants would have Chanel logo then pple cant see it cause its alrdy INSIDE the boobs.
okaaaaaay.
meyaa shutup.
this is the result of inactive brain(the blogging part).
bye! shopppppppiiiiiinnnnnnnngggg!

not in the best shape

2007-12-01T11:54:00.000+08:00

sick until further notice.

feat my loved ones

2007-11-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

feat. my♥

the airport is such an ironic place.

at the same place;

i was jumping for joy five days ago

& today i had to struggle with the knot in the throat.

love you forever and ever babe.

bubblepopLOVE

2007-11-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

this love's built to last

foiled science centre trip, walking around aimlessly, bubblegum, bus rides, manboobs and myGILERR♥

shit. my curls are gorgeous. sorry uh self-praise is national disgrace, i knowww. but shitzzzzzzz. GOOD HAIR DAY GOOD HAIR DAY!

my early bday and xmas present's arriving tmrw!!!!!! in a form of the adorablest going to be 10mth old :D sukerrrrrrrrrr.

okbye.

while some are born to lead, others are just meant to follow.

oh baby

2007-11-18T14:32:00.000+08:00

& i saw you staring back at me.

oh baby.

contented & happy

2007-11-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

today has got to be one of my happiest day.

happy as in contented, blessed, grateful kindar happy.

abah companied to take my ipod, we walked arnd town for a bit, ate lunch then NTUC for groceries & home.

it was surprisingly, mellow-y nice.

like i felt at peace.

i dont like going shopping with abah but everytime i asked moms to shopping, he'd want to follow and everytime we'd end up arguing over it and everytime moms will go,"i cut my body into half laa..."

today i realized, i can go out with him, for him and not for me.

i remembered that i used to love loitering around the men's department while he chose shoes, clothes, etc.

its also the first time that we went out, just the two of us sans moms.

today i felt accomplished.

i felt that i finally did something that i wanted to do after abah feel ill(& thankfully recovered).

and i should find time to do it more often.

to bring him to places he'd like to go.

to take him to the men's department instead of wanting to go Topshop and get what I want.

wanna know one LAST thing?

SISTER AND AISYAH SUFIYAH CONFIRM REACHING AT 1830HRS ON TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MOMS AND ABAH DOESNT KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HEART GIVING SURPRISES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO AIRPORT HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

couldn't be happier!!!!!!!!!!

bye

HAPPY 18TH ERYYYY

2007-11-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

one more girl, made happy

happy 18th gilerrrr

♥

for the rest of the happy surprise(ahem ahem see who are the planners laaa), visit ery's blog!

Vietnam in March, yay moms!

bloody neh neh pops

2007-11-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

BLOODY NEH NEH.
i left my group discussion early.
i secretly(in my heart) told the bus driver to drive faster.
i brisk walked up the stairs.
Mr Postman was ALREADY standing at my door.
PERFECT TIMING.
i took the bag, i signed.
"ok thank you."
quickly tore open the paper bag.
EH WHY ONE BOX ONLY!
EH WHY MODEM BOX ONLY!
*STARTED PANICKING*
damn. skali cheated uh.
DAMN.
quickly on computer.
quickly load singnet.com
quickly scrolled to footnote.
iPod touch - 8GB is redeemable 7 working days after service activation date via a redemption letter issued by post
NOT FUNNY OKAY SO STOP LAUGHING AT ME!
so much for trusting the OLDER COUSIN.
"they will deliver with the modem laa! deliver together la! you dont kan-chiong cannnn"
i self-taught myself better than this; to always read every single effing detail of a contract.
then my neh neh cousin get me all excited and i get all muddle-headed.
TSK.
seee laaa meyaaaa stooooopid.
OK DAH RANT ENDS HERE.
i'll still get the ipod and i can look forward to another happy day ahead.
meanwhile, stay tuned for today's happy story.
BYE.

sweethings

2007-11-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

im on sugar high.

Cold Rock(or any ice cream makes me happy).

i can see the damn double chin forming(or making its way back).

im generally contented.

nana and i queue-ed for donuts for less than half an hour, impromptu-ly.

my relationship with nana is emotionally draining cause we're BOTH hard-headed like nobody's business.

i still love her laa dno why also :P

i think i miss my boyf too much cause ive been smelling his perfume arnd me, like even when ahpek walk pass also i thought he using Davidoff's Coolwater(or maybe he does, cool ahpek).

life's been very much blessed, as always.

Thanks You<3

& lastly, ive to keep telling myself that with expectations, come disappointments.

okbye.

wei wei liz

2007-11-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

today was unplanned day turned great date with chew wei wei liz.

Queensway to alter jeans.

IKEA to buy utensils for Monday's lesson.

Bras Basah's Popular for lesson thingies.

Suntec for Fish&Co. dinner.

One Fullerton for Starbucks.

alllllll in my Little Miss Keds who were killing my feet.

definitely worth it, nevertheless.

thanks♥

&!!!!!! thanks cousin for the tip and THANKS Singnet for being generous! oh and of course thanks moms for agreeing to the recontract!! Thursday is going to be a GREAT DAY :D

♥i miss the scent of Davidoff's Cool Water lingering on my skin, get well soon baby. cinta kamu<3

hurt

2007-11-07T23:06:00.001+08:00

when you think im sensitive, take a step back, look at the whole picture and reflect on whether YOU are being insensitive.

at times like this, i really feel i should go; in silence.

not an ounce of appreciation,
but thank you anyways.

edit:

any form of shopping will make me feel slightly better.

Kate Spade's delicate satin flats with a frayed bow.

Resort 2008 Trunk Show, Varina Patent Bow Flat by Salvatore Ferragamo

2008's gonna be a great year, hopefully.

moms fell asleep while watching hindustan, imma go snuggle up and sleep beside her; everything's gna be fine in the morning<3

aku ingin

2007-11-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah

Dalam tidurmu

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu

Yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
Karena langkah merapuh

Tanpa dirimu

Oh… Karena hati tlah letih
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu

Yang slalu bisa kau sentuh

Aku ingin kau tahu bahwa aku

Selalu memujamu
Tanpamu sepinya waktu

Merantai hati

Oh… Bayangmu seakan-akan
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang

Memanggil rinduku padamu

Seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada
Oh… Hanya dirimu

Yang bisa membuatku tenang

Tanpa dirimu

Aku merasa hilang… dan sepi

Dan sepi…
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang

Memanggil rinduku padamu

Seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang

Memanggil rinduku padamu

Seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada
Selalu ada…

Kau selalu ada…

Selalu ada…

Kau selalu ada…

Once by Dewa

God, please be with me tmrw(& every other Monday).

♥

Raya07'withBoyF&Friends

2007-11-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

moms collected my lovely lovely items from the post office!

pretaaaaayyyyyeeeeeeeee!

& today kicked off with a GREAT HAIR DAYYYYYY!

;)

check out the rest of the nonsensically happy pictures taken by the boy who caught ALL of his gf's unglam, disgusting, burok moments.

Raya07'

NIGHTS<3>

material girl

2007-11-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: SOME PICTURES MAY CAUSE DISCOMFORT. :D

today was a supposedly great day gone bad.

short version is that i was gna pay for my bra when i realized i didnt bring my ATMcard.

MAMPOS.

meyaa slengerrrrrrrrrrr rite.

so home i went.

and ruined it was, the plan i had to have a quickie shopping with rOol then surprise her with the cupcakes.

UPSET seyyyyy.

i even drew fake candles and thought we could take alot alot of pictures.

WE DIDNT EVEN TAKE ONE.

thats new.

so anws, i went back to CT Hall and get all my thingie thangs.

since no human picture i shall show everyone the things i bought with my last tuition pay for the year.

All Things Pretty! pictures copycat-ed from FayFey's http://www.fayfeylovesyou.com/ :D

Mr Postman delivered the first three when i was at school just now and ive just purchased the other two! Aurora is GORGEOUS! i wanted the thin layer only and there's this other person who wanted the thicker layer ONLY. whoever you are, THANK YOU! the pins, i chose the kissing swans to be made as a necklace!!! PRETTTTTTTY!

Little Miss's undies!

i knowwwwwww im famous for despising BLUE. butttttt i cant resist the cuteness AND buy 2 20% off whaaaat.

MY VERY FIRST BIKINI!

dont worry i wont show the world my fats by suntanning at Sentosa in them. the salesperson said it can be worn as a bra so i shall call it a BRAKINI! pretty riteeeeeee. told ya i can get nice embroidered one! *sticks out tongue at plain T-shirt bra.* hehhehheh!

MY VERY FIRST BRA from WomenSecret! i like i like!

and the brand's pretty affordable as well :D

this pouch's design was on a bra which did not have my size and rOol rationaled that "cannot get the bra get the pouch la!" i was taking forever to decide i shld buy the smaller size cause i rly rly rly rly like the design. but sadly BUT good enough, i have a GREAT negotiator with me :P

bedroom/house slippers! at last! i know i dont live in a MANSION but these are great!!! i hadn't been wearing one for so long. & i promise to wash it cause i wouldn't be throwing away a dirty bedroom slippers from topshop. i'll wash it! really...... :)

bangles! from snobbish salespeople shop. TSK. GUESS WHO WANTS AND WILL GET the brown one????

okayyyydaaaahhhhhbyeeeeee.

OH OH! i teman-ed nurool go NUM to get her havs pierced with tuky-tuky and saw a NUM shirt i wna get! soon sooooon! qah said wear men's shirt sexy. so i shall take the advice from the sexy girl.

ok back's KILLING ME.

sleep, now!

nightttttttts<3

coli laa coli

2007-11-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

i went to Causeway Point with moms to get Aisyah Sufiyah's Avent milk bottle nipple which apparently have sold out in KL.

i bought the last 6 they have at mothercare after some reserving drama mama.

its been ages since ive been to Causeway.

nayways, told mom that i wanted to get a bra.

she said i can get the Triumph T-shirt bra. after dragging my mom here and there cause of my genetic(CD 2.2! hahah!) nature of being fickle, i tried on the 80dollars bra and deliberated...

"so soft... comfy.... but uh.... tsk. dont want uh..."

cause i thought, why get a plain bra for 80dollars when i can get a pretty pretty whimsically nicely embroidered one for around the same price range.

so i told moms. "okay you gimme the 80dollars tmrw i go WomenSecret or La Senza.. i go alone uh.. you dont like Marina Sq/Suntec area rightttttt"

sooooo kapoooosh!

im shopping tmrw, NOT ALONE ANYMORE.

with nurool! my goldfish baby!

ginneh! you didnt confirm with me :( anyhoots, just text me when you can kayyy.

YAY YAY YAY YAY!

IM SO HAPPY.

babe you better TRY not to cancel last minute kayyyy.

i'll understand but i'll be crushed :P

the past few days was TUMULTUOUS.

what with stressing abt my new centre, abt the kids, about the lesson plans.

but i was enlightened (:

and im learning how to be patient.

i still hate you to death, thou.
but i believe with one bad thing, comes along a million more good ones.

happy things ahead again!

*SMILES*

thank You.

<3bye!

OHMYGODTHANKYOUFORSAMM

2007-10-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

SAMANTHA SEE **, I, MEYAA, PROMISE THAT IF EVER I BECOME A MILLIONAIRE, I'LL EMPLOY YOU AS MY PERSONAL BLOG DESIGNER AND TAKE YOU SHOPPING EVERYDAY.

hehehehehehe!
thank you so so so so so so much.
you know i appreciate it ALOT.
<3
p/s: i ADORE the Mother Teresa's quote. im not very shallow afterall (: AND im meyaa, anyways.
bye!

friends

2007-10-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

♥

thank you my babies for standing up(well in this case typing up) for me.

p/s: samm. like seriously! branded bags, look who's talking! look who was given a LV Vintage from prospective mother in law huh?! ONE TWO THREE! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW......
:P

psssssst: told you im happy, life's great, VERY MUCH LOVED and you're not entitled to bring me down. & yes, i wouldnt mess with samm. she trashes when she wants to & she trashes bad. AND you'll definitely NOT be on par with her English. so good luck!
neynineynipoopoo *sticks out tongue*

HAPPY 18th sister

2007-10-29T00:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th!

this year,

i give you my life

♥

deserving brat

2007-10-28T14:52:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 10 this morning to have Macs breakkie with mom.
then we went stationeries and groceries shopping.
i just said a loud BYE! at the kitchen window as my parents leave for Geylang while im vacuuming & mopping the house.
which spoilt brat helps with housework, huh?!
im sucha deserving brat, no?
:D
hehheh!
i'll be meeting Qah at 6 for a shopping quickie cause ive to get back cause my godmom's coming and also cause tmrw im starting my attachment alrdy.
sorry babe.
im happy.
i hope you will be too,
peace <3

raya time

2007-10-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

the videos will take lightyears to upload...

...nevertheless, i beamed like a proud sister

♥

i had so much to say skali nurool go and distract me with online shopping skali i end up with 3 items=$103 which ive to break the news to mak tmrw morning...
eh wait rmb alrdy!
okehh so PERJUMPAAN HARI RAYA...
i chose company at BukitBatok over glitz&glam at AMK, right smack at my house carpark.
otw back in the cab...
dad(translated): at our house one have Taufik Batisah...
meyaa: bedek uh! (lie uh!)
open cab door, saw huge screen, saw Rahimah Rahim singing.
tons of people.
CONFIRM HAVE SURIA ARTISTES UH.
then again. i menyesal for a spilt second(i swear!).
cause i thought.... "rool's company over glitz&glam AND some faces i dont wish to see.."
ROOL'S COMPANY TRIUMPHS LAAA!
duhhhhhhhhhhhh.
so yehhhhh.
besides company, i can camwhore shamlessly.

so here you go, the fatty bom bom and her pretty sister:
Semarak Aidilfitri 07'

psssst you pest: you're entitled to your say but you're not entitled to bring me down.

thankyougoodnight(:

danish cookies& superficality

2007-10-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

how my classmates of almost 2years perceive me.

my initial thougths: "i'm superficiality at its best."

& i'm sorry if i come across really really bratty(like wna slap her face kindar bratty)

i really think ive something more inside

& i hope one day someone would tell me what it is, in full sentences with sincerity.

nevertheless, thanks yous 2A02, i know y'all mean the best :)

feeling maternal with Danish cookies.

yay yay! dah dapat, green colour ader heart!

many happy days ahead,

yours will be too♥

pocket pals

2007-10-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

Babies babies melayu terakhir♥

i knew they had fun over at kampong.

i cant believe i miss kampong.

& my nieces; i want to shrink em' all and put em' in pocket.

especially the one in orange.

oh god. meyaa bias. so much for practising what you preach.

BUT i still LOVE em' all <3

bowling baybeh!

2007-10-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

a conversation between the boyf and i a few days ago...

meyaa: b you play bowling right? you very good right? you have your own ball and shoes right????

boyf: yes b...

meyaa: WHY TOGETHER 3 YEARS ALRDY NEVER TAKE ME BOWLING BEFORE!!!???

boyf: okay one day i take you kayyy

meyaa: THIS FRIDAY! THIS FRIDAY! I END SCHOOL EARLY! THIS FRIDAY KAYYYY

boyf: okay we confirm again kay

meyaa: *cannot contain excitement but tried*

so friday came & the one game we played at Marina Sq was good while it lasted. we came late, the place was booked by a company for their competition thing and so we left.

then this morning,

meyaa: *woken up by mom saying sister on the line needs to speak URGENTLY. skali. she asked me to choose which bag she should buy for sufi. so, i ended up staring into space*

**handphone rang**

meyaa: eh b you not at working?

boyf: no lazy uh.. wna go bowling?

meyaa: nak nak! NAKKKKKKKKKK! okeh seeyou at 2! bye!

when we reached CDANS there was a competition going on...(i feel like someone cursed me to have streaks of badluck. i overslept and had to skip one lecture on friday morning, alrdy. then i almost got hit by a DOUBLE DECKER bus. dont ask. like got someone say, "i hate meyaa. i curse her to have the world going against her. *evil laughters*")

NOT SO EASY OKEHHHH.

hahahahaha!

boyf insisted we wait for the competition to end and so we did AND it was greatttttttttt.

i throw sembarang(anyhow) then i throw correctly then i throw sembarang again.

but it was FUN FUN FUN nevertheless.

someone got triple turkey laaa, four bagger laaaa and first time hit more than 200!

i INSIST its girlfriend aura charm luck thingiemanehneh. heh.

we played 8 games and i freaked cause we had to pay $26.40

now i know why mega rich pple have bowling alleys in their mega mansion.

pardon the spasm-ing boy. he wants to show the world his mat-rep highlights. too bad my cam doesnt capture mat-rep hair :P

i am very very very happy :D

can you tell?

my boyf taught me to say, best(pause)gilerrrr instead of best gilerrrr.

my boyf did the funniest impersonation of alrdy funny Dol(Aaron Aziz on Salam Lebaran).

my boyf sang Sean Kingston's Me Love "Uh uh uh uh oh ooh why'd you have to go-oh away from home me love, Uh uh uh uh oh ooh why'd you have to go-oh away from home MILAH"

now that he sang it that way it rly sound like milah.

my boyf took me bowling.

i like(pause)gilerrr.

in other news,

the parents came back on tuesday :)

grandmama's up and walking and is now in KL taken care by one of my aunt.

school's been alright (school will always be a love-hate r'ship).

i only rmb its still raya when i go cck to tutor and see pple dressed in the kurungs and walking in groups.

3rd sister's wedding confirmed 18th Jan.

1st sister's family confirmed coming down from Perth on Xmas day and will be staying for a month. at last. i get to meet my first nephew who's only a few years younger than me and i can go talk to my brother-in-law about prospective education plans :)

school just started and the year is alrdy ending.

poly makes life twisted. in a good way.

okayyyyyyy. dah. bye.

cause everytime you make me cry, you make me laugh harder.

i love you lah(pause), gilerrrr♥

twist of fate

2007-10-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

i cant believe im at home, alone, on the second day of raya.
but im eternally thankful that the grandma's heart is not failing as reported by the phonecall, saturday night.
it kicked in when i realized i didnt went out of the room while getting ready raya morning and talked to her while moms was on the phone with her.
then the whole whatifs start coming up and i felt that she's going to pass on without me giving her one last kiss.
wrestling with the thoughts of going with the parents but school's starting and i really dont want to have a concrete reason(read: death cert) for not attending the first day of school, the usual bawl to sleep followed suit and i was woken up by the parents leaving for malacca.

im tryna shove the whole im super emo cause i feel very alone when i see families walking clad in their matching outfits while i was standing by the kitchen window.
things happen and for the fact that abah especially didnt ask me to skip school so i can go with them showed me how much they trust their youngest(&only) daughter.
now i really hope i'll get the chance to meet my nenek soon and she's gna hang on for me.

this just brought my issue with death to a whole new level.
i tried to make nice with it, tried to think that it can happen anywhere, anywhen, anyhow, anyage.
but when i can see ageing reflected on their faces, in their eyes, that makes it harder.

so everynight, i ask for one more day.

eid fitri

2007-10-13T21:24:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

like every year, the moms and abah wish they're at kampong house
& for the first time this year, i feel the same.
i bet amidst all the heat and kecoh kampongness lies the real meaning of raya celebrated with dearest closest family.
to top all the love, Aisyah Sufiyah, sisters, brother, nieces, nephews, cousins, pakciks, makciks and nenek, there's the uber ultimate fun of blasting sparklers, poppers like nobody's business all night long.
next year, with full hope.
i aint no goody goody two shoes saint but im still very very grateful when i heard the takbir & pondered on the fact that i overcame the nasty little twat in me which keeps tempting me to puase yok yok. i know once i start, there's no turning back.
& due to unforseen circumstances, im glad to say this year was a whole month of Ramadhan completed. no ponteng ponteng.
with that said, im sorry if ive hurt anyone along the way while im trying to do life.
ive no qualms in saying that i'll still be hurting.
im only human, we all are.
so to all those ive gossiped/bitched/enemified & had been gossiping/bitching/enemifying me,
i said my piece(s) & im sorry but im not taking it back.
imma leave it to God; between me&Him.
okeh babies! have fun raya-ing and may y'all be bless with all the goodness & joys of the month.
<3

i like you

2007-10-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

okay baybeh, bring on the RAYA! :)

when i got back from the last minute-get-everything-i-need shopping alone trip i tried on high beam and benetint on one side of my face. i see like no diff so i applied a bit more then i fell asleep. woke up and saw one side of the face looking as quoted from the goddess beauty book, "gives you and innocent yet provocative glow.."

cheyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :P i like. but the bottles so kecik laaa. i see i can only stick to Body Shop for daily use. but okeh ehk splurge abit to look nice on raya day :D

♥

this song makes me want to run to my boyf and give him the tight tightest HUG.

can you believe ive NEVER watched A Walk to Remember. alamak meyaaaaa riteeee. i shall catch it...... someday. heh.

I love you. "i like you"

samm's belated

2007-10-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

Samm's Belated + Catching Up Sesh

so its Sakae Sushi, the girls succesfully talking me out of buying the Lacoste bag(mom should like go hug and kiss them) & Starbucks gossip sesh(spot Ting's "huh whaaaaaat" expression. thats how we gossip)

i changed my havs cause initially Andy kept for me 2 shades of pink & said the darker pink nicer then i went home and realized, "alamak. dont match my RL laaaa." so i cerewetly(fussy-ly) asked Andy to keep for me the lighter pink one. & i got it pierced(by !) with the free Tuky-Tuky. pretty laaa. saye sukerrrr. hehheh:D

& from throwing brat fit this morning so i can get moolahs for the Lacoste bag, i brought home all 200bucks and came home with one undies which i didnt get last week cause i felt poor. i still like the WonderWoman one i bought for Qah. i shall go search for my size. YES! i scan my undies so that i can show the world. sorry la, fetish.

i just NEED to get that Evita Peroni hairband & clip, clean my Guess necklace(if only i can shamelessly walk into Tiffany and pay them to clean it), maybe get a lipgloss and im READY FOR RAYA!

im afraid to say that im not very ready for school. TSK.

okaylaaaa BYE.

*looks at group photo* gosh. my stomach is so boncit, its vulgar.

bestfriend

2007-10-10T03:09:00.000+08:00

You Know What I Did Last Night

nana went,"nie confirm balik amik gambar byk byk..."

YE BETUL!

& besides, i shamelessly bought myself mini dumbo(what shall i call this one?) & the boyf was playing this videogame which he later said, "best uh you... race then win money modify the bike.."

so CAMWHORE i did.

i can totally FORSEE samm going, "TSK. meyaaa narcissist" & qah going, "meyaa meyaa, how can you (shamelessly) camwhore like that...."
nyetttttttts.

so, NAH AMEK KAUUUUUUUUU.

i achieved effortless beauty (on camera lah at least).

tmrw real life you see me effortless burok. HAHAHA!

okdahbye.

this is such a whatever-i-just-wna-blog-to-show-the-world-my-self-proclaim-effortless-beauty-pictures 3 am post.

tak gune langsong.

selamat malam kawan kawan

(oh gosh. tersampok. so melayu.)

oksudahbyeeee.

happy love

2007-10-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

perk-me-ups comes in packages of really pretty girls

♥

fish & co. catching up sesh with liying hunn

fasting at sentosa made worth by these sexy ladies who have taught me that its okay to turn up 2hours late :P

♥

& cause the art of losing is not hard to master

Jason Lok was worth every dollar

rambut saya cantik terima kasih banyak banyak

goodnight world<3

one art

2007-10-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

One Art
The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day.
Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant to travel.
None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch.
And look! my last, or next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones.
And, vaster, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
---Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied.
It's evident the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

--Elizabeth Bishop

losing something small, doesnt matter
a continent, something big, doesnt matter
she lost a friend, disaster.

on a lighter note, BESOK LAA BESOK!!!

bimbo lah

2007-10-05T01:41:00.001+08:00

should i?

raya shopping with moms tmrw.

i pull a "kesian"(pity me please) act with moms by trying my 3years ago raya shoes in front of her and said that it feels quite tight(which is true laa).

& this whole raya bag thing.

i dno laa. i buy raya bags every year and every year i make the WORSE decisions.

last year i bought a puny pink xcessorize clutch(on impulse) which i dno how to wear when raya's over.

i wna buy something that i can use during raya, weddings and then also when im out dating my boyf or something.

oh weddings. i pull a "i promise i'll go to more weddings with you when i get the right shoes & bag" act with moms.

which i will laaa.

so tmrw is gna be a mission.

a mission of finding a versatile raya bag(ive a GREAT feeling i'll get the clutch above) & comfortable heels that can fit my huge feet.

God bless moms with energy.
i have pictures to post!

later later ehk.

after tmrw, it'll be clean the house weekend then MONDAY! when i'll purchase confidence at kimage.

i lost 77% of my confidence cause of my burok hair.

im a sad sad case.

okay dah thank you for reading this bimbotic post goodnight bye!

danish cookies & love

2007-10-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

this mineral water is SEDAP. too bad the price($2.90) is beyond sedap tooo.

if not i'll buy cartons back and make it my new healthy water. it tasted healthy.

in other news,
my cousin gave birth to a baby boy on tuesday and on saturday i went to visit him. i carried, fed & burped the small eensy weensy tiny person. he felt so fragile.
anws, his dad's a nepalese convert so his name is Danish Aryan Gurung Bin Nabil Gurung(muslim name) a.k.a Shivakumar Gurung. thats one heck of a long name. but of course he can just Bin his dad's muslim name.
i conveniently decided that i'll call him my danish cookies.
cute huh.
in another news,
i had a mighty blasting time with my huge bundle of goofyness goofball.
we window shopped which i now think is a crime. the shopping centres should invent this system which only allows pple who HAVE money to buy things on the spot to enter.
now, ive got so many things ive got my eye on and ive to have an "adult" talk to myself(in my head) or get nagged by mom & eventually get em' things. i so prefer the latter.
anyhooooots, we got seated at Sakura Intl. Buffet and waited patiently for buka time.
it was a year ago that we celebrated samm's bday there and i rmb fully well that its not halal cause they ordered alot alot of drunken prawns.
but now it is so i see alot of this place in my future. mainly because of the baked cheesy clam things which i dno how many i had.
we ate till we're full to ALMOST the brim and decided that its best to leave before the staff have to mop up a disgusting scene.
oh! i was carrying a plate full of desserts & i heard, "meyaa!"
it was chew guan wei! eating with her friend.
how random was that.
it was good thou meeting her after some time.
the boyf&i lugged our huge tummy to taka to meet his friends for a bit, then we head home.
pretty good, pretty good :)
my hair, fringe especially is beyond burok messiness. one more week. one more week meyaa.
bye!

p/s: i just sipped my last drop of Volvic Touch of Fruit mineral water. now, how i wish my dad's a mineral water tycoon.

hairy issues

2007-09-30T00:22:00.000+08:00

i just read this from Kimage's website:

Style Card Renewal
Existing Kimage Style card members whose style cards are expiring can apply for the new Kimage Style Card at any of the Kimage outlets during the month of card expiry.
For renewal, the old style card must be presented together with an admin fee of $7. Renew your style card with us and enjoy :
A 50% off hair services voucher which can be utilised within 7 days of your birthday
An instant 30% off Hair Products, when you renew your style card
For card holders who have misplaced your style cards, do drop us an email for us to replace your card with an admin fee of $11.

my card expires next year which means i'll have to wait for Dec 08'
but still!
50 efffing percent.
thats ALOT, considering the hair services prices.
(alamak. kuku head. i just realized skali the hair services is cut hair only.)
anygoogoodolls, i'll get 30% off my "moms will always nag cause its too expensive for a bottle of hair cream" hair cream.
moms will be happy to hear that.
im getting all hyped up to numb my butt on Kimage's chair.
i want to do tmrw if i can.
but my bimbo head tells me that the later i do it, the longer it'll last = gimme more time to save money/honey talk moms to gimme money for the next session which i think will be 2 yrs later.
SEEEEE.
i dont go all tai tai and do my hair EVERY SINGLE month or something.
so please dear lovers, friends, enemies, strangers,
before i have to answer to: "why you go kimage? how much? expensive right? other saloons offer cheaper... bla bla bla shit"
SAVE YOUR BREATHE.
ive been getting this ever since i get into poly and its getting on my nerves cause THEN, when pple hear the prices, they'll go judgemental, waste parents money spoilt brat on me.
ive suffered enough of beyond burokness when i was younger & was naive, dont know how to source for resources to fix my burok hair.
but now that i know, its my crowning glory & its my choice how many freaking dollars i wna spend on it.
ok. i sound too defensive alrdy.
i better stop.
peace y'all.
goodnightos cornettos.
:)

p/s: sherlynn lee xueling! i have NO idea you think of such sweet, nice things of me. considering how "i am not there in you life" most of the time. i'll go do that history thing so that you can take a look back at my entries (: love you, MAJORLY♥

ive got dates to look forward tooooooooo!
buka with boyf
dinner with liying my sweet thing(rhymes!)
sentosa with mel&samm(i'll survive fasting and going to sentosa with the help of gossiping and laughing with the girls)
Sakae Sushi buffet with CHEW GUAN WEI! (we'll set up a date soooooon kay)
hopefully meetup with nurool (maybe i should drag my lazy ass to yew tee before i go tutor)
oh oh! i needta go Queensway with moms (alterations, maybe squeeze in jeans & MAYBE detour her to IKEA so i can psycho her into faster-ing the process of changing my room)
& LAST. one thing i really look forward to is for sister's stoopid contractors to hurry finish up her house's flooring so that my sister & sufi can pack and fly here for raye or at least puase. (she got me all excited saying that she'll text me so that i can fetch her from airport & ive been keeping it a secret cause we LOVE to surprise moms&abah THEN, her stoopid contractors still haven't got around to do the flooring.)
UGH.
okdDAHbyeeeeeeeeeeeeee
<3

reality check

2007-09-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

look what i just read from lelaa's:
"nana and i both agreed though: umairah's one good example of a great friend(: meyaa we love you so!!!!"

my heart did a triple flip thinking that im getting something something about nana.

then i realized its 3 years ago.

i tried to find something in me to react to it, to all this.

& as ive alrdy figured im used to the "walking-in & walking-out" thing.

i'd be lying if i say i dont do it either.

& i'd be selfish if i say i have my reasons.

we all do.

i still havent figure out a way to manipulate my ego and construct a 5pg long msg then press the button.

i dno where lelaa got the idea that im a great friend (three years ago) but im most certainly am not now.

thank you, thou <3

moms never told me nothing in life is constant

but now i know.

well, except for one thing,

one little person who's growing up way too fast.

this is favouritism but she's a baby for God's sake, get over it.

& if by going to KL to visit her & my sister is creating a big-silent-war-hoo-haa-meyaa-has-once-again-left-to-go-indulge-rich-lifestyle-shopping-like-thats-the-only-thing-she-cares-about-in-the-world fiasco,

then its totally worth everything cause the last time i checked,

blood is definitely thicker than water.

thank you very much, now enjoy

bye

for whats worth

2007-09-26T20:25:00.001+08:00

best & worse,

burok to gorgeous (i wanted it to rhyme).

♥

our talk-till-sahur session was out of the world.

it feels beyond greatness to laugh like that after so long.

& of course there's no doubt we'll be burn in hell for bitching like that during the fasting month.

oh wells, for LAUGHTHERS worth.

i hope i made you feel better & i know too well you'll make me feel better when i learn my "disease" fate.

tonight, #2?

wait for my call<3

social suicide 101 = publish downright ugly secondary 1 photo

(just so you know, thats the last of my au naturale hair that will ever be seen)

& if this is all a competition,

clearly,

ive won the ultimate prize;

someone, something, all the money in the world can never buy.

(in your face)

happyhappythings

2007-09-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

breaking fast with moms, abah & loverboy

bimbo books with PRETTY PRETTY covers,

made me one mighty happy girl today

im in love with Jill Mansell's novels illustrations

i was standing at the exact same spot having a difficult time choosing which book i should buy.

i shall start reading when im on my way to tuition so that i look a weeee bit intellectual.

ohhhhhhh! im gna reply to cake lady in a while.

double yay!

life's getting exciting by the minute.

<3bye!

boy's family

2007-09-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

so here's how the story goes.
the boy called at arnd 545ish saying that i was invited to his house to break fast.
the next thing i knw was that i was freaking out cause its a BIG DEAL, a HUGE DEAL, well for me at least.
i told moms & she smilingly asked me to go ahead.
then there was this half an hour rush to get ready, rush to pack bag, rush to go out, rush to meet the boyf, rush to board the train...
& the next thing i knw was that i was sitting in between his sister and his baby nephew.
then there's all that "uh eat eat eat summore, uh eat laa dont shy shy"
ate, smiled, ate, smiled, drank, perspired, smiled.
YES, i was that shy.
i cant make conversations.
i find it very awkward.
but i thank god ive been tutoring so it wasnt really like first timer kindarf thing.
& thats the story of last minute plan dinner with boyf's 3/4 family, gone RIGHT (:
after 3plus years, ive finally been cordially invited to the nice, humbling, family affair.
it felt surprisingly great.
it was kindarf short thou cause i "escaped" next door to tutor the nephew.
when i was leaving, i was even invited to do the break fast thing every tuesday&thursday when im over tutoring cause there wont be enough time for me to eat something before i leave the house.
but durhhhhhhh, i'll only go if the boy's gna be home from work.
:D
i dont knw how to describe the whole experience.
i only get to go to his house every raya & this june i started to tutor at his brother's place which is just next door to his.
this tells that both our family is not the modern-you-can-bring-your-bf/gf-over-anytime-you-want kind.
& im glad we're brought up like that.
i mean, YES, i dont deny that i'd love it if my parents or his(usually its the boy's parents who're more liberal) allow the your gf/bf to come over anytime & hang out, watch tv, eat & sleepover even.
but i guess, thats what makes us different.
physical closeness is not everything a relationship needs, i believe.
anydingiedongs, the boy's joining my family this sunday to break fast at town INVITED BY THE FATHER & it seems like dad's been asking ALOT abt "nizam"(hahahah! YES. he's confused with Nor Azan Firdaus, so he just gave him a phony name & moms been saying its AZAN laaa) lately.
so i guess, we've both been a HIT at each other's household & its HUGE that dad has FINALLY acknowledge his girl has a boyf.
at this rate, we'll be engaged next week & married next month.
HAHAHAH! wait long long la ehk....... :P
♥youstill,babe.

thankyouverymuchbyebye

im hooked to reading things that are nauseatingly entertaining,
i guess thats why trashy entertainment always sells.

my heart goes ooh ooh ooh

2007-09-18T01:22:00.000+08:00

"make my heart go ooh ooh ooh"

on moms date, we walked uncomfortably into Coach boutique to "wash our eyes" but was greeted nicely by a nice malay salesman which made it all comfortable. i dno ehk. wont you feel uncomfortable if you dont have the intention to buy anything but just browsing at Chanel, Tiffany's, Coach, Prada, Loewe, etc. anyhoots, who am i kidding, the wallet i want wont wait till december but moms didnt cringe when she saw the price tag so i think thats a good thing. meyaa shall be patient and wait very patiently for december.

steps on how to convince moms to "advance" me money to let me go for hair therapy session:-

Step 1: walks up to her and smile coyly (at this point, she'll go: what else you want..)

Step 2: say "im just smiling at you, also cannot...."

Step 3: start babbling on "when i get my tuition pay sept&oct i give you ALL kayyyy. please.. my hair is a wreck.. its hari raya.. please.. the last time i got it done was like 2yrs ago, alaa please laa, can laaa.."

Step 4: SILENCE MEANS CONSENT!

i cant wait to numb my butt on the chair and have my head caressed by gay hairstylist(s) whom sentences i cant even comprehend at times. im gna throw major brat fit if moms goes back on her "silence means consent" at the last minute.

okay. so the whole chunk above is a result of me not wanting to sleep. im bored. i need to find someone who's sharing the same lifestyle as i am now. i sleep after sahur till abt 1PM, watch tv, cook for buka(YES, girlfriend can cook y'all!), buka, snack ALOT, watch tv & its a vicious, vicious cycle. slid in tuition time on tuesdays and thursdays & thats practically my life. i bought mock exam papers for the kids today since their exam is in a month's time. that made me feel a lil bit important, made me feel that im still doing something useful in this world. my mission of clearing up the guest room so that i can move in= mission impossible cause im too lazy to drag my fat ass off the couch. i cant squeeze anything anymore into my two-door closet. my room's full of educational materials that didnt bring me the GPA i wanted. i want to date my boyf but he's busy working, as of the past 6months. i want to date my girlfriends but nobody got back to me. i got one chance to dress up and meet up with mel for samm's bday chalet but i cant cause ive to tutor. i want to chat with nurool on the phone till sahur but she have to layan crying babies in the day. i really want to text ** but im too egoistic to do it. i still havent got a reply from cake woman. i want to IM * to say i miss him but im still too egoistic to do it. im waiting for Chew Guan Wei to come back from rural China land to show me pictures of her doing business in the bushes and tell me stories of eating the sacred dish of pig smothered in blood something something like that.

oh god. my life's nearly perfect, nearly.

im happy thou, still very much happy. contented i must say.

if you're still reading, thank you certified crap reader.

do you think i should off this piece of IT entertainment system and plop on my bed and TRY to sleep?

i think i should.

Melissa Wong you neh neh pops! i told you im not off-ing my comp till you appear online but i guess i should now cause its 2am & you're supposed to send me songs at 10plus. ihateyounowbutstillsecretlyloveyou.

& Nuroolhuda Z. im still waiting patiently for you to say bye bye babies and HELLO MEYAA. i need major laughter fits, seriously(hehe! that was ironic).

okdahbye.

moms<3

2007-09-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

third time's a charmer(:

thank you for everything moms,

for love, for live♥

in/out

2007-09-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

this man is a piece of sexy.

daddy-o's gg to melaka cause sister&sufi is at melaka home. for that babygirl, he'll travel there on saturday & come back on sunday. just to see Aisyah Sufiyah.

that also means its gna be moms&me weekend (:

which also means im gg on a mommeh date, mini shopping, break fast outside.

moms being very "unlike-moms" these days. most of the time, i'll have to like throw major brat tantrum, attacked back by her continous nags to get her to buy me something(who said i get my things with a click of my fingers?). these days, i just had to ask once. maybe she's like hiding a huge pile of money from me(she did say its her 35 years service this month, maybe SingPost wrote a few more zeros on this mth's paycheck!).

hahaha! dream on la. but 35 years, no kidding! since after her o lvls. these days, we switch jobs like we switch wives, husbands, boyfs, gfs, undies, etc.

anyhoots, i aint complaining. it may just be blessings of the fasting month (: or good karma (: (:

okaydahbyegoodnightloveyou

i have a plan. so tell me if you want in or out?

cousins afterall

2007-09-12T18:21:00.000+08:00

im gg to AMK Hub to watch RAT TAAAA TOOO EEEEE with my cousin.

its time we start to hang out.

please God dont let this be awkward.

& stay tune for MORE ol skool photos of yours truly.

you'll be entertained, i promise.

from the nicest to the ugliest

all will be revealed.

i swear